20.11.09
kinderjoy
there is a longing, only You can fill.
a raging tempest, only You can still.
how true! hurhur. that no matter how much we try and find stuff/people/achievements to make our lives more complete, theres still this gaping hole that only You can satisfy.
today is breakaway day from the library once more. tension in the library has reached a new high, seeing how most papers start in less than 4 days' time. therefore, one would expect to lose himself/herself to unnecessary fretting if no break is taken from such an environment.
HEH HEH. actually its breakaway day only because i feel slightly flu-ish and am practising social responsibility. or rather. presenting myself with an opportunity to sleep in more.
just dug out a kinderjoy egg (an evolution of kindersurprise) from the depths of the refrigerator WHAT A PLEASANT SURPRISE(: sugarrushX100 which will allow me to turbopower through 100+ slides of neverending regulations.
okay BYE.
siqs |18:02
18.11.09
hurhur
when i feel like sleeping in more than usual in the mornings,
when i log onto facebook every two hours,
when our lunch/dinner breaks get shorter and more hurried,
when i start realising that time is not on my side,
when i know that time is not on my side yet i do stuff like blog,
when hunger pangs creep in in the middle of the night and when the amount of time spent reading is inversely proportional to rate of absorption,
when i start thinking about all the things that i'll get to do come 3dec,
i know that exams are reallyreally near.
hahaha onwards! perhaps this is also an experience to be enjoyed! a few more years later and i'll be missing this! (or maybe not) thank God that im still a student!
G'NIGHT BYE.
siqs |00:40
13.11.09
some friday thoughts
OHGLORIOUS NIGHT.
full steam ahead for the exams! before december comes. i really cannot wait for december to come! even though it means internship/work. but am quite looking forward to that somehow and christmas! and when everyone comes home and church is like a mega happy family! (:
unlike the previous sem, i seem to have somehow lost my liking for the library though! its quite strange. i keep wanting to stay home and mugging is actually fairly fruitful at home too. if not for my beloved fellow library monsters (lurvelurve) (and the banking book which cant be borrowed out of the library grr) i could hang around the east whole day long!
president hujintao visited nanyanggirls' today! timo said that he saw nanyang girls lining the perimeters of the entire school on his way to school. hahaha. while the mental image of this was quite amusing, i must say that i was at the same time awfully proud as well. i thought about the chinesey/traditional stuff we used to do back in nanyang and strangely enough, while we used to complain about doing them, these are the stuff which i remember fondly about after i left school! like huichun, molihua dance and bazhang making. do love the school very much; would give much just to be back there again, to hang out with foursome+lastsix and even to don the sleeveless hongzi.
okay nostalgia aside and like the chinese saying goes, there are no banquets in the world which will not come to an end! so im thankful for experiences like the ones in secsch which i can bring with me up till now and beyond aye!
on another note, sometimes we've really got to filter through the things which people tend to say!
alright its midnight, time to retire for the day. BYE.
siqs |23:45
08.11.09
kimchi overload
i feel so full from lunch right now i may just explode while typing this haha!
so cheongmay introduced us to a very powerpack korean restaurant today along tanjong katong anddd. it was really. powerpack (for a lack of better vocabulary to stress its powerpackness). they had like freeflow sides so it was kimchi/ikanbilis/other fermented stuff overload. and food was rather nice! (: just thattt i think i had too much kimchi cos im currently feeling v thirsty! even after a can of coke, a cup of bubble tea and two glasses of water. HMMMM.
twas a great day and i laughed lots. quote of the day belonged to zhaoming: 'aye jon ahh i think i need to buy MAN pyjamas.'
driving test was a fail (literally) and hence i guess my chance of becoming a proper driver will have to wait till next jan at least! crushed as i was, i guess it was a learning experience and God must have His plans even though i dont know what yet! so till then, i must practise more indeed and be less noob!
ogay BYE.
siqs |16:14
31.10.09
october
so after a month-long battle with takehome exam/assignments, the ordeal ended yesterday with the submission of corpgov. YAYYY. coupled with other things, i guess it wasnt an easy month for me so i truly have God to thank for being my anchor amidst the anguished moments, for teaching me new things/reminders and for very patient&loving parents!
AND HENCE tyz, aw, ashwin and myself decided to take the rest of the day off yesterday by going to town for a movie! hahaha it may seem like nothing but it meant quite abit to us! having ample time (and good reason) to just hang out like this. we watched coraline which i thought was the most disturbing cartoon on earth! i mean if a kid watched this right im quite sure that he/she would be eternally scarred by it okay. what happened to good ol' tom and jerry show! hurhurhur. but that said it was quite interesting as well and perhaps worth the watch if you wanna think about the themes which the movie attempted to explore. so yea good break great company! (:
on another note, the key to great strength? joy; the joy of the Lord.
okay BYE.
siqs |22:33
28.10.09
arise!
i love the peace and quiet that come with nightfall. especially after everyone at home has gone to bed and im left alone with my crunchy keyboard in the room. it gives me proper space to think through what i wanna write.
AHHH after this paper's due on friday im going to cut my hair. snipsnip!
pls remind myself to do subject registration or i'll be left with nothing to study next sem!
okay now faith shall be my eyes! BOOM (not boomz please).
BYE.
siqs |00:33
25.10.09
breaktime
im thinking, wouldnt it be nice (in fact nice is an understatement) if my essay would magically appear in front of me all done and edited! ahhhh. then again i wouldnt want to have it this way too because. no work satisfaction! its like a love-hate relationship; i kinda like the rigours of essay-writing yet i feel like knocking my head against the wall (so that hopefully some sense can be knocked into it) when materials are highly dispersed and writer's block is in full operation!
but i know that where my efforts cannot bring me, there God will begin. gotta stay calm and keep going!
and i was talking to tgnub recently about how i wished sometimes that i could drop whatever im doing currently to do things which seem more fun and happs. butt then i know that in this season, His calling for me is be a student who will honour Him in my studies! so perhaps there will be another time for me to engage in those stuff. a time and season for everything! and the part about letting loose and just going ahead with what i liked to do? i guess it really stemmed from the fact that i was kinda losing sight of what self-discipline was for; afterall life is short right why must i e.g. spend my time studying so hard. but then God reminded me of this verse that He gave to me at my first ymlc and it was in 2 timothy 1:7, that He did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love, and of self-discipline. we are supposed to have self-discipline because His Spirit lives in us and such are the characteristics of the Spirit that He has given to us! therefore, there is purpose in exercising self-discipline where we need to because we as His children are called to live as such.
ogay wash up time!
and yessss HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST BRO. you have been such a blessing!<3
okay BYE.
siqs |21:44
17.10.09
post-birthday
its a beautiful day and i get to stay at home till evening today! (: am feeling quite pleased. its deepavali today and hence no saturday class too! a full saturday to myself since the semester started.
i must say that time is one thing that constantly amazes me cos. i remember myself in this exact same spot (in front of the laptop) roughly one week ago agonising over my takehome exam/feeling kinda sekretly sian that i had to spend my birthday that way. but now one week later the paper had already been miraculously completed (thank God who is the God of miracles, seriously) and submitted and im here typing this!
so what turned out to be quite a stressful birthday morphed into a birthweek of blessings and much love. from friends, from family, from God. i guess it didnt really show from my responses but i was very moved. am especially thankful to my parents and bro who tolerated my exam-induced crumminess and did everything they could to make me feel better. only family would!
a thousand times i've failed, still Your mercy remains!
the one thing that i'd like to thank You for this year, Lord, is for Your gift of salvation that i may look upon my twentyone years of life and recognize that it's Your hand with me throughout. and that i can continue to find Your purpose for me in this life, which makes life truly worth the living aye!
hehe okay! BYE.
siqs |11:19
07.10.09
powerpack
hello im kinda alone in the library now after bp/ernie have gone for vcf sports day (GO CHESED!!), tyz has gone to kentridge and yenping has gone off to meet her mummy for shopping. haha kinda secretly sian. but ohwells i know that this weekend paper will be done with really soon! which will be. after this weekend. haha. PSYCHEUP MAN.
Father, what are you trying to say/teach me when things seem to be the opposite of how i would have expected them to be?
i bought a pea green coloured file today! colour very naiice.
okay BYE.
siqs |15:06
05.10.09
:)
i think its amazing how God knows me right to the core of my heart and how He just lifted me from ): (for a lack of vocabulary) after a rather crummy night yesterday. so these happened today:
1. i dreamt that two of my friends morphed into earthworms. in a cartoon kinda way. hahaha yes as strange as this may sound, i was very amused when i woke up in the morning.
2. got a lift from dad to school (i.e. no long march up the hill) and reminder msg from him to eat a proper meal.
3. there was chinesecorp class where jorina let me copy her lecture notes and where marian showed us her very cute pouches!
4. then i met aw/sr/suef in the library and we went for lunch/banking, where our retarded biology conversion swept away much grumpiness.
us: wahh you know quite alot of bio stuff for an arts student huh.
jian: of course im gep what.
HAHAHA.
5. receiving a random msg from nat telling me how he had a dream of mei and himself attending my wedding last night and also his subtle rejection of my offer to be his wedding planner. 2X HAHAHA.
6. went on fb where bennett's 'im coming home' status appeared at the top of the newsfeed.
7. catching bus home on time! askiris is one of the best inventions ever.
8. while in semi-stoned state on the way home, i received a phone call from jansen (weekendfriend!!) which made me kinda touched that he still bothers to keep in touch ever so often despite being faraway in koalaland. TRUE FRIEND.
9. upon arriving home, chrysanthemum tea brewed by the mother.
10. home.
so yes right now i suddenly feel ridiculous for being the grumpy person that i was yesterday. these little things in life (and how rare all pooled tgt within a single day!) bring much joy indeed. thankyou Father.
alright back to work. BYE.
siqs |22:28
02.10.09
HIIII
hello. after working on my translation assignment for the past three days, i now have a newfound and deep respect for translators. it was really kinda draining (and strange) trying to get started all over again after three years of virtually no contact with formal chinese writing! the battling with differences in expressions PLUS degenerating command of the language. hur. but that said, this has still got to be the most enjoyable piece of assignment that i've done in law school so far! im less than halfway through the article though so on to more in the next couple of days!
anw i logged on to diaryland because i was kinda upset about something that i've read and wanted to type some incoherent stuff here to mini-rant. but now that im on, i dont think that im that upset anymore. ahh i know that You know best Father!
BYE.
siqs |23:35
28.09.09
HEEHEE
hello.
i bet 5 applepies (with no one) that my bro is watching how i met your mother right now. hahaha seriously. i hear sniggering/laughter emitting from his room every few minutes.
and right now i feel very tickled too for some strange reason. maybe i'll start giggling to myself/my notes very soon. i mean not.
hehe ogay BYE.
siqs |22:34
22.09.09
beautiful day
today was a beautiful day; these happened:
*beloved bp and aw came over for sleepover (doublebeams)+supper with them/ernie/comradejin at hkcafe+korean chickflick at midnight! i enjoyed your company lots friends! HEEHEE.
*ecp cycling part 2 with the rest, which saw me re-practising my new found but by then non-existent cycling skills.
*thankful for patient buddies! for friends!
*my sekret fear of propelling off the bike came true due to poor control (i.e. hard jamming) of the brakes.
*BUT the fall kinda made me feel braver after that. somehow.
*bk for lunch and farfetched weaving of next year's lawIV plot (our current favourite pasttime topic).
*long march to ice-cream chefs from ecp made pleasant by group chorus of random boyband/musical songs!
*and FINALLY ice-cream chefs! watermelony and gummibears DA BOMB.
I LIKE.
(:
BYE.
siqs |20:29
21.09.09
RECESSTIME
its day one of recessweek aka reading week part one. haha sort of right. a time for clearing backlog that i've accumulated for myself over the past six weeks and to prepare for the upcoming takehome. COMEONNNN!
lawIV yesterday was really good. the singing was fantastic and it was HILARIOUS. i loved it. but a few of us panicked abit after watching it cos the standard that they've set is so high! haha. it'll be our batch's turn to do lawIV next year SO SWIFT.
mothers have this special gift to comfort and assure somehow. thank God for my mum(:
BYE.
siqs |11:39
20.09.09
HAREPEE BURFDAY!
im currently feeling very sleepy BUT i cant get to sleep because my tummy has been feeling rather queasy/bloated for some reason! i blame my chocolate overdose for this. gahh):
but buying partydecor/chilling at gavin's (thanks fb for allowing us to takeover your house for a while haha) with kingku and later mayy was good. really. we just stoned around, ate freddos and talked about anything and everything(: I LIKE.
(:
BLESSED 21ST DEAREST CBP! oh lerfyou more than words can say!!
BYE.
siqs |00:57
18.09.09
blessings
one thing which is kinda precious and i really appreciate during the school term: spending nighttime at home (instead of being in the library/out randomly somewhere). it makes me feel extremely contented and rested somehow. i love the quietness, i love the lack of consciousness of surroundings and of people, and i love simply being around my family.
i've finally gotten my driving test date! YAYY what an arduous learning journey it has been. esp the commuting from home to school to driving centre. so hopefully and by the grace of God, i'll be able to zoomzoom around after november! (:
ogay BYE.
siqs |20:35
13.09.09
fifteenhours
today is one of the longest days i've spent hanging out (literally) since i dont know when. 15HOURS EGAD. 730am in church for worship prac, svc, flcomm meeting, successful present hunts for jo+charis+charbao (really happy that they managed to find stuff they liked), jo's birthday party (thanks for the invite and yummy food jo!) and BOOM HOME FINALLY.
im so tired now i just wanna roll from my chair into my bed and sleep like a pig.
but i did enjoy myself amidst the fatigue (never go to orchard road on a sunday btw the crowd is insane) and the nagging feeling of not having read anything over the weekend! my church buddies are the FUNNIEST ever and i dont know where i can find another set of them elsewhere. reallyreally. think SPRAYCANWAR at jo's party earlier. i cant believe that we're 21/going to be 21 alr/above 21 sometimes.
much love to charbao+may+charis (and partner who may still be at vch watching a concert for her music mod right now). you girls are very special to me indeed(:
alright it's time to draw today to a close by retreating to SLEEP.
and. thankyou Lord for Your grace so amazing.
BYE.
siqs |22:51
27.08.09
UP!
i feel the weight of two sandbags underneath my eyes. and hear the growling of my tummy as well (should have eaten something at supper earlier). the aftereffects of lastmin essay writing!
but the feeling after submitting the essay is. kinda out of this world. thank God for His grace and also for the prayers(: i feel so light now! incidentally im gg to watch UP with charis tmr, where all things float to the air with the aid of a bunch of colourful balloons. what am i talking about. but anw the point is im very excited! (: i think my last movie was end of exams last sem when all of us went to watch this x-men wolverine thing.
anw its jianghuayu day (i.e. chineselawclass) tmr! TIME TO CRASH.
BYE.
siqs |23:45
24.08.09
Your Name
when morning dawns and evening fades
You inspire songs of praise
that rise from earth to touch your heart
and glorify Your Name.
Your Name
is a strong and mighty tower
Your Name
is a shelter like no other
Your Name
let the nations sing it louder
cos nothing has the power to save
but Your Name.
Jesus in Your name we pray
come and fill our hearts today
Lord give us strength to live for You
and glorify Your Name.
--Your Name by Paul Baloche
(:
BYE.
siqs |18:54
19.08.09
blooooop
hahaha i dont know whyy i keep doing silly things like blogsurfing and facebooking when i have 70pages of readings to be done before i zoom off for driving tmr afternoon! its like theres this nagging voice from within me telling me to get on with the thabo meli approach (from a random case) but somehow im compelled to resist that voice. just one more website! or just 5mins more of doing nothing.
AIYO. on a more separate note i think this is how falling into sin is somehow like; you know what is the right thing to do yet you allow yourself to push the limits just a little further until you turn back and realise that you've gone so very far out, and it takes alot to get back. thats why it should be alertmode at all times and adhering to what He is saying. ogay random thought of the day.
BYE.
siqs |21:01
16.08.09
a time for everything
there is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
-ecclesiastes 3:1-8.
siqs |16:15
14.08.09
wafflestownn
chineselaw was da bomb today. and by da bomb i meant i felt like a bomb dropped on me. hahaha better do my readings for next lesson if not ggxx.
i've to say that im feeling extremely stretched yet at the same time i feel like theres alot more that i can give. sounds contradictory but yes. and at this point in time im sorely tempted to pour out my woes here but i shall be counter-emotive and talk about things good and joyful! since there are still many people in life to love and things to be thankful for. even though i focus so much on the difficulties sometimes to be able to see the bigger picture.
just as the Lord fought the battle for moses and the isarelites by parting the red sea in their moment of darkness, we only need to be still and know that He's in control! (:
peanut butter waffles calling out to me manz. in times like this, i wish that i still lived in amk where theres an abundance of primadeli=waffles!
michneo and i made two new australian friends on exchange today! one from our chineselaw class and the other her friend+whose twin sister i've seen around the library last sem! how happs is that. very nice and friendly girls! and hearing them talk about how weekends in australia are truly weekends (i.e. everyone abandons their books and really enjoy the free days) made us jealous man! :D
ogaybogay. BYE.
siqs |23:48
12.08.09
here i am
sometimes it is just so tempting to find many reasons for myself to take the easier way out.
and that was in relation to my electives choices for this sem.
when i lack courage, when i feel like i can't go on with my own human effort, that is when You begin Lord. so lead me as You will.
BYE.
siqs |21:35
11.08.09
G'DAY
WHAT A GLORIOUS MORN.
heehee. its seriously a beautiful morning today! the weather is cool, i hear dogs barking from my neighbours' houses and gardener watering the plants, and im extremely sleep sufficient(: then theres the lovely purple flowers that i can see from my window and strawberry salad+peanut butter sandwich for breakfast! AHH VERY NAIICE.
from the highest of heights to the depths of the sea, Creation's revealing Your majesty.
BYE.
siqs |10:00
10.08.09
YEAR3
tell me how im going to start school again tmr! my heart is left behind in the summerbreak days! ):
so year3 officially begins tmr! halfway through lawsch SO SWIFT AND SPEEDY AYE. maybe before i know it, i'd have started work already! EGAD. must treasure school life babiess(: ANW as i attempt to start on my readings, i find myself logging onto facebook after every paragraph. FAIL.
i cant wait for dec break to come. and fl/yam camp. and CHRISTMAS. and random fun with churchpals. and watchnight. and alot more.
ALRIGHT but for now its psyche up time first! yet another exciting sem with the Lord(:
BYE.
siqs |20:32
08.08.09
random musings
HELLO.
some thoughts (floating around my mind like many circles in a venn diagram)-
*my very thick stack of crimlaw notes is currently positioned at the right bottom corner of my desk and it seems to be threatening me to READ IT OR ELSEE OFITG.
*im so hungryyy.
*i wish that all aspects of life could be neatly compartmentalised into many little boxes and some aspects kept away when not needed.
*then again life is exciting cos everything comes together and we have to learn how to cope with them and multitask! thats also when we realise how finite our human abilities are and how much we need God to be in the picture all the timee.
*fl sports day later!
*promise vs rationalisation
*DRIVING SLOTS FREE UP PLS.
*xiao long baos
*bubble tea
*california handrolls
*laksa
okay i know its lunchtime indeed.
BYE(:
siqs |12:50
07.08.09
more than enough
hello i feel like im devoid of anything substantial to say heree. haha must be the pre-going back to school sianness! after three glorious months of fun school's in again come next week! actually i do like what i'll be taking next sem but the thought of perpetual camping in the library scares me alil. but i know that my God is the one who provides me with the wisdom and strength through it all! (:
anw this week was a nice and fruitful finish to the three-month break! cosss. i got more sleep, ran more and most importantly i learnt how to play mahjong and cycle!
learning how to cycle alone deserves many powerpacks because i never thought i'll see this day coming! hahaha with my gross hand-leg coordination and fear of propelling off the bike into bushes/lamposts. YESSSSS must practise moreeee. credits go to my wonderful teachers aiwern and ernie!!
YAYYYY.
AHEM OGAY.
so thankyou Lord for this break and the manifold blessings which came along with it! more than enough(:
ecp today was great fun! tandem with huili and then aw+learning how to cycle+bubble tea. i feel like a kid again!
BYE.
siqs |17:08
22.07.09
today
today i felt crummy and angry,
and i thank God for blessing me with friends who are ever patient and who would instantly make me feel better, at their expenses (nice laksa helped too, just a teenybit hehe).
(:
today i felt rejuvenated, because i finally moved (i.e. went for a jog) after mm 2 months. and all that perspiring and routine (i ran back and forth the park track and passed by the same playground 10 times) did me much good.
today i realised what an ingrate i've been for the past few weeks; being all grumpy for no reason when God has indeed blessed me with much.
its time to be still, and know that He is God.
bye.
siqs |21:34
12.07.09
SAY CHEESE
days like this one=much blessings.
1 camera + 4 boisterous girls on the train coupled with gross laughter=havoc.
love you girls alot(: i can imagine this exact scenario happening thirty years down the road. if bullet trains havent replaced mrt as the prime mode of transport that is.
ogay BYE.
siqs |18:27
10.07.09
(:
all that is within me, praise Your Holy Name.
hello have been going out almost everyday after work this week, meeting friends whom i dont get to meet much or catch up properly with when term's in full swing. must admit that i was rather tired physically sometimes but every meetup had left me happy very very much worth it(: people like my dear mom buddy curlyneo, lastsix and lawbuddies! really cherish our moments tgt seeing how everyone's so busy and/or all around the world. their friendships are truly blessings from God for me to treasure!
tmr's last day of internship and will be entering the last month of my 3month break starting next week! how time flies. shall spend this remaining time fruitfully and restfully (if theres such a word), promise. ogay more after tmr. it's time to crash. goodnight and.
BYE.
siqs |00:01
01.07.09
squirrel
im beginning to wonder if i'd someday become one of those people who would couch potato their nights away after work. possibly in about 2 years' time. cos all i look forward to doing after work everyday is to go home, shower, eat dinner, stone in front of the teevee for a while, grab a book read abit, check my mails and then SLEEP. it's indeed extremely unhapps and even though i havent been able to fulfill this very ideal after-work lifestyle for the past few days, i have been spurred on (self-spurred) to realising it very soon. hence my grim hypothesis at the top. there goes my running to ecp grandplan. hahaha it shall have to be shelved for now.
(so internship part2 has started this week and im very thankful for my fellow intern gina (:)
that said, there are many more meaningful things to be done apart from slacking. it is still my utmost hope to lead a more energetic and structured lifestyle; being a lifeless amoebae is not high up on the agenda. first step towards greater enthusiasm for human interaction (i.e. meetups with beloved friends) shall be to make the 8-hour sleep cycle a permanent fixture in the nights. this will certainly ensure much bright-eyed-bushy-tailedness.
BYE.
siqs |21:14
23.06.09
new home!
hur so i've finally made the home shift from north back to the east last friday (i feel like a migrating swallow btw). kinda happy to be back in familiar grounds! and being near to church/grandparents/churchbuddies again. but im missing the old place quite abit esp my room. afterall i've spent countless hours in there rushing deadlines/doing TAKEHOME EXAMS/rolling around/having alone time aye. and i really like the ultra urban view from my room too. i still wake up in the morning half-expecting to see my trusty ceiling fan and hear the vague rolling sound of the train passing by! hoho ohwell. mm still thankful for the new place anw! for one it's quiet(: and with the 3-month break in full swing, staying at home feels like a nice getaway from the HUSTLE AND BUSTLE OF LIFE (as cheesy as this may sound HAHA).
OGAY BYE.
siqs |12:05
30.05.09
laziness
hello. lazy saturday afternoon; lazy wind which refuses to blow, lazy trees which refuse to sway and lazy clouds which refuse to squeeze some rain out. the only hardworking creature around is the sun which is emitting much radiance and HEAT indeed.
anyway i just had cheesdale cheese and apple juice. i feel like having peanut butter pancake now.
Lord, Your grace ever abounds in my life. thank You(:
ogay back to adriel's subhas book its quite an interesting read!
bye.
siqs |16:57
23.05.09
glorious weekend
just so i wont chicken out and spend the rest of my day sleeping and rolling around at home,
am going to take a nap, wake up and go for a run, stroll to the nearby coffeeshop to pick up a cup of tehbing (CRAVING), shower and then go for louis' birthday party.
GREATPLAN. turbopower.
beautiful weekend. now i know why people who are working are so fiercely protective of their weekends cos im really guarding mine quite abit right now haha. all i wanna do is to sleep in, take my own time to read papers, read unfinished books, stone, stuff like that. HOWW. studying does seem more palatable than working indeed.
BYE.
[/edit] hurhur i just satisfied my tehbing craving SO PLEASED.
siqs |12:01
16.05.09
the little prince and the fox
aye my sleep cycle has been severely altered by the wonderfully long afternoon naps that i've been taking all week. and i was telling my cg yesterday that i think im oversleeping because im starting to get nightmares during these naps. hurhur. ohwell but being able to sleep alot is a blessing! (: someone told me before that sleep is a privilege during term time. so yea im thankful for that.
oh i think the world is moving too fast for my liking, not in every but many aspects. am reminded of the little prince, esp the part where the fox was talking to the little prince about building relationship with it. i cant really remember the details but the fox said something to this effect: it told the little prince that he could spend time with it by sitting some distance away from the fox's cave each day but gradually moving closer to the cave with each passing day until they become so familiarised with each other over time to be real friends. in essence, what the fox was trying to say is that time is the crucial thing that one must be willing to give of in forming meaningful relationships with others.
but what i find is that this is hardly the case with relationships (in the general sense) these days; they are formed far too hastily, people often expect to see visible signs of intimacy (like confiding in each other, lots of meetups etc) within a fairly short span of time and these signs are then all too readily perceived as depth in the relationship itself. unlike the process of forging relationship which the fox and the little prince went through, there also seems to be little virtue for people in having the patience to wait and communicate from a distance, only moving closer towards the fox's cave with time. im not really saying that relationships should be formed by keeping indefinite distances from each other or by being overly cautious with each other cos the process should be natural but they shouldn't be formed either by having each other sprinting towards the fox's cave right from the beginning and then expecting instant reciprocation from the other party.
that said, this is easier to be said than done though- time being such a precious commodity in this time and age. then theres this part about being honest with each other (think 40days of community book hurhur) as well; people are afraid of investing time in other people because they do not know if thats what the other party would like. what if the other party had no such intentions of nurturing a relationship tgt? then i'd be left vulnerable to hurt, not to mention the loss of time (horrors). yet things would be a lot different if both knew how each genuinely feels about certain things (though this in itself is once again easier to advocate than to practise). building a relationship is like a risk-taking process in that sense aye and someone has got to be brave enough to start first. at this point in time i feel like im making building relationships sound like preparation for some form of battle haha but that is definitely not my intention. just that bringing this to the extreme, the world would be a lonely place if everyone was adverse to risk-taking.
ANW. not that im a very adventurous person myself yukyuk. i do agree that time is not the singular factor in forging relationships of course; human interactions are far more intricate than that. but for meaningful relationships to be formed time is definitely needed to burrow deep.
byebye(:
siqs |12:04
11.05.09
rumbletumble
hurhur i wanted to sleep an hour ago but here i am an hour later still fiddling with my laptop. grahhh. anw first driving lesson tmr. or should i say in 8 hours' time. very early in the morning but the early bird catches the worm. vroom.
just came back from flcomm retreat. to be honest i was actually kinda reluctant to leave home on friday evening cos of post-exam sluggishness! haha how silly; cant imagine how much i would have missed out. it was really an extended time of spending time in His presence, hearing out for Him and resting in Him again. also a fruitful time of learning of His Word and just praising Him for who He is in our lives and in our ministries. spiritually recharged(: and then the sweet time of fellowship with beloved comm members as well. oh what a racquet we made but it was truly simple, pure fun.
ogay goodbye.
siqs |00:05
05.05.09
over!
hello. the very gruelling exams are finally over. really relieved, really glad. Father, thankyou for carrying me through this. because You are God, i can be still.
(:
anw is mere faith in what you believe in sufficient or is there an equally pertinent need to know the basis of your faith for yourself. had a conversation with jem on this earlier andd. while i used to be contented with the former, i think that there is actually much merit in the latter. hur but unfortunately i find myself to be sorely lacking in this area indeed. HOW. okay time to read more, think more, seek more.
ftt tmr I REALLY NEED TO PASS if not i will never be able to drive, which is not a nice scene to picture.
i watched my first ever x-men movie today. it was actually not bad, notwithstanding the gory scenes. hurhur.
goodbye.
siqs |22:56
30.04.09
muggings
hello one down one more to go! (: something to be thankful for.
im feeling very hungry in the library currently i feel like drinking pumpkin soup suddenly. okay no pumpkin soup summit food is the best.
i wish i had more substantive stuff to say here but all i can think of right now is how to cramp 1 sem's worth of publiclaw in 5 days hurhur. but its ogay turbopowerrrr.
goodbye.
siqs |16:30
28.04.09
raindrops are falling on my head!
TWO DAYS TO EQUITY. which means. EXACTLY ONE MORE WEEK TO THE END OF EXAMS.
i really wanna finish constructive trust and tracing today! comeoncomeon. have transformed from library monster into home monster over the past few days; i feel very contented currently sitting in my little room with light from the table lamp shining warmly on my notes. and light drizzle + lots of greenery outside. it's a beautiful rainy day indeed(:
byebye.
siqs |14:34
19.04.09
suddenattack
developed a very nasty bout of headache+fever+chills today which caught me by surprise. was going to spend the day studying in the library until i reached school and didnt feel very good. drifted in and out of sleep in the mdc room until parents came and then went home and had a very long but fitful sleep. gahh horrible. i think my body's protesting from the gigantic amount of sleep debt that i've accumulated for myself over the past week. and if not for this fever, there is no way that i'd have spent the day sleeping): BARE.
thank God that everything's more or less gone now! really thankful that everything went away quickly. must learn how to take care of my health. it's so cliche but without it theres really only so much that i can do. i will sleep by eleven from now on, reallyreally.
BYE.
siqs |21:21
18.04.09
milktea part 2
i realised that my day sounds more or less identical to the previous day's. cos i wanted to start off by saying that i drank milk tea and felt very queasy in the library earlier. and then i read yesterday's post and decided not to. hurhurhur.
for the many times that i've failed You, Lord Your mercy remains. deeply moved by His grace in my life; for the way that He has encouraged me, lifted me from the miry clay and set my feet upon the rock. the glory is all Yours. im thankful(: just like how the branches cannot survive apart from the vine, Father i cannot do anything without You.
i was just thinking on the way home and very randomly that. there are barriers in relationships often because we choose to believe in pre-conceived notions of people. and we dont clarify or get to know the person for ourselves by talking to the person directly; we would rather keep quiet, keep the perception and then utilize what our human eyes and ears can see/hear as support for it. but words and actions are precisely the most easily misunderstood creatures in the world i think. yet this can't be helped because we as human beings tend to judge too quickly and easily. hurhur though such is life, i think this is partly why God tells us not to judge.
alright BYE.
siqs |00:13
16.04.09
milktea
hello babiess.
i just drank milk tea. it is a super powerful diuretic. and im in the library once again where time is a circular concept.
exactly two more weeks to go. HOW TO FINISH STUDYING.
but His grace never fails(:
BYE.
siqs |20:14
08.04.09
glugglug
bloopbloopbloop.
spend time with God, eat, study, sleep. and things will be good like that. the peripherals can come later.
more than blessed laa(:
BYE.
siqs |19:43
23.03.09
):
i wish people would accept how things work more simply sometimes. instead of secondguessing and the like. aiyo.
BYE.
siqs |19:30
22.03.09
triplebeam
most shiok feeling in the world (or maybe not most but one of hurhur)! rolling around at home after nice long run! im feeling so so pleased right now. yeeha.
(:
grandpa's 81st birthday dinner tonight! i love gramps. okay off to conquer readings before i've no more time again.
BYE.
siqs |16:11
09.03.09
ever i will sing!
i thank God for His grace so abundant today.
for allowing me to slash 500 words within an hour, for blessing me with lovely friends to help and to encourage. im really thankful.
and with the main assignments out of the way for the rest of the sem, am feeling kinda light and dandy. even though lcs remains a constant thorn in the flesh. work never ends.
but amidst this never-ending work cycle, there is yet joy in Him. persevere and trudge on aye(:
ogay so hungry i wish lecture would end soon. BYE.
siqs |13:19
05.03.09
oceans will part
if my heart has grown cold
there Your love will unfold
as You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
when i'm blind to Your ways
there Your Spirit will pray
as You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
as You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
oceans will part
nations come
at the whisper of Your call
hope will rise
glory shown
in my life Your will be done.
present suffering will pass
Lord Your mercy will last
as You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
and my heart will find praise
i'll delight in Your ways
as You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
Jesus open my eyes to the work of Your hand.
(:
siqs |19:18
20.01.09
reedings
the more i resolve to morph into a readings machine this semester, the harder this gets.
BYE.
siqs |20:55
11.01.09
SKOOL
first to bata, then back to school!
school is in! feeling a little unsettled but i trust in You Lord; You will bring me through this semester.
praise You God of Earth and sky
how beautiful is Your unfailing love,
unfailing love
and You never change God You remain
the Holy One,
my unfailing love.
WHOOSH.
BYE(:
siqs |21:35
30.12.08
cold tangerines
i just finished packing my room and am feeling very pleased with myself indeed. in fact, even as im typing this, i cant help but do a sekret beam each time i take a quick glance at my incredibly neat baywindow area (like now). only one word: verynaiice. there are lots of empty spaces now for the new semester! equities/trust/public law HERE I COME. NOT. haha. okay soon.
finally some alone time today; i feel like catching a movie by myself. australia or bedtime stories. or finish up my christmas cards. or read a nice book. so exciting(:
2 more days to the new year. what a speedy gonzaleh. BYE.
siqs |14:04
05.12.08
no more mangoes please
i went out with jasminebom and charis earlier on for dinner and moral of the story is: dont eat so much. hehehe. i had late lunch (suanla banmian is da bomb) and a sandwich before i left home but because these two ravenous med students were feeling hungry i had to eat dinner early and hence KOREAN at meridien (YUMMAYE). then we wandered around plazasing abit before settling down at hkcafe AGAIN for two giganormous mango desserts. HAHAHA such fun though. i really enjoyed myself eating and fooling/guffawing around with them(: LOVELOVE GIRLS. however the aftermath was. i felt so queasy throughout the train ride home i thought i was going to spurt out mango bits like a merlion. so i msged them to complain about overeating and the reply from jasmine totally echoed my WOES. it went like this- 'Haha i just feel like im in labour!'
...
HAHAHAHAHA.
im sekretly a little upset that i cant go for anntic. esp when almost everyone in chesed is going except me. sigh. but ohwell. the existence of purpose in every season aye. that said, thinking about gotsalt? camp sort of changes everything. im feeling quite excited for it already and just so very thankful for the comm + co-partner sophie(: they've been such a blessing.
i realised that i really dislike tragic endings. be it for novels or for movies. cos when i detect sad endings, i tend to dread reading on/continue watching. hurhurhur. i was reading a thousand splendid suns (grins at sophie and ling) just now and when i got to the part where laila and mariam were trying to escape i couldnt resist the temptation to fast forward and read the next few pages just to see if they'd be successful. however when i found out that they'd be caught by their shared gross abusive husband my heart sank. PLOOM. now i dont want to know what happens after anymore. rarr.
hahaha. okay BYE.
siqs |23:29
02.12.08
arise
HELLO EXAMS ARE OVER. words cannot describe how relieved i am to be done with it. yet slightly unsettled because i think that this has got to be the barest set of exams that i've taken in my life so far. excluding those gross cts during rj days. but i refuse to think about it anymore. everything is in His control and everything happens for a purpose; trust and surrender. He gives and He takes away but blessed be His name nonetheless. for now, it's time to play(: tis' the season to be jolly. HOHOHO (merrychristmas).
im physically tired but i cannot bear to sleep somehow. hehehe. i know that time is definitely not of the essence right now but i feel like i want to do so many things, meet up with friends whom i've been missing dearly, gotsalt? camp stuff which i've been neglecting, sleep alot, read a book properly for once etc. and thinking about the stuff that i wanna do hyperactivates my mind. if theres even such a word. i thinkk. i can burst out in song right now. LAAAAAAAAAAA.
okay BYE.
siqs |00:27
17.11.08
!kung bushmen
i feel crazy to be typing away like that in front of my laptop right now. at 6am in the morning when i could be doing better things like sleeping.
but no. i woke up at 430am to finish up clt and when i was awoken by my handphone alarm i felt like i was part of the chthonic tribe where time was a circular concept; it goes on and on forever. im looking forward to the end indeed but it never seems to come.
anyway,
im feeling quite happy and at peace nonetheless. not quite done but almost done. there is yet hope.
(: back to work. BYE.
siqs |05:57
09.11.08
highly dispersed thoughts
PATIENCE.
bona fide purchaser for value without notice.
and ziing has gotten me stuck on damien rice's cannonball. hahaha. i've been humming the acoustic part the whole day already. i dont really understand the lyrics properly just yet but the instrumental bits are good. loveit.
i want good music.
and i truly appreciate sincerity.
both statements above being disjunctive.
and i am content with the way things are these days.
(:
BYE.
siqs |16:47
02.11.08
devotion
its amazing how it always rains when im home on a sunday afternoon these days. the rain takes away all the residual heat of the day and brings much coolness in. and moisture to the fields outside. very lovely. (:
two things to take note of this week!
* where my heart is, there my treasure will be as well.
* be mindful of subtle arrogance.
ogayy. back to floating charges. bloopbloop. haha how apt. AHEM.
and i wanna watch sing to the dawn.
kBYE.
siqs |15:57
28.10.08
eventful101
it was a very eventful day today, one which left me feeling a strange mix of somewhat relief and crumminess. i say somewhat relief because i wouldnt exactly use that word; relief seems to slant things towards the bad side which definitely isnt. maybe i would replace that word with happy. happy with the way things turned out and am thankful indeed. appreciative of some stuff as well.
as for crumminess,
im listening to a song now and it says this:
same power that conquered the grave lives in me. Your love that rescued the earth lives in me.
with knowledge and experience of such awesome love, how can i stay crummy for long and keep from praising Him.
enough said(:
BYE.
siqs |19:55
26.10.08
gallops
hello.
im thinking. i need to be more brave. and not be a chickennehneh. opportunities are to be created sometimes. though this runs together with seeking Him at the same time. and this is off but when i typed the previous sentence, i somehow thought of covenants running together with proprietary interests in land.
things to be thankful for this week! smashing publicity for got salt? today! loveit. cbp you are the bomb. i mean. the publicity guru! (: powerpack pub amidst exams somemore. it was an AMAZING job done! really glad to see things falling into place nicely and healthy number of signups. yea and then! for mocktrial yesterday as well. for it being this week and not anytime later, for daffy being such a good witness, for lovely opposing counsel/witness and judge. most of all, thank you Lord for Your wisdom, for giving me the words to say. in all these, to You be the glory.
and now that mocktrial's over. it's time to settle down and mug for exams. cant escape anymore. WOE. though i dont really feel like doing so currently. ogay ogay self-discipline.
hence, as a start to having more self-discipline, i will log out of diaryland now.
BYE.
siqs |21:37
19.10.08
gurglegurgle.
it's raining outside. i just took a 2-hour nap and am feeling slightly groggy. and earlier on i changed into my running attire only to be met with the dismal sound of RAIN. it was as though this particular dark and brooding cloud was waiting from afar, waiting for me to make up my mind about running. then the moment when i decided to run that gross cloud came rushing in and squeezed all the water out of it. CRUMMINESS TO THE MAX.
that aside im happy to be home on a sunday late afternoon, seeing a blurry mess of people and cars from my window and feeling very safe and warm indeed(:
i still really wanna eat timbre pizza. why dont they have. TAKEAWAYS.
hahahaha.
BYE.
siqs |17:25
14.10.08
midweek entry
aye.
i noticed this general lull in my life lately. YES LULL because i think i wont be able to say this in a couple of weeks' time when exams draw to a near. it's not that we've been having less stuff to read but i've been adopting this very lackadaisical attitude towards work since the end of midsem break which i dont think is too good.
yet im feeling strangely happy and at peace with this. and with the mundanity that comes with this lull. going through essentially the same routine everyday doesn't bother me very much; in fact im content with things being this way. yes though comfort zone breeds zero growth so to speak. haha.
its kinda unsettling to think of my life in this manner but im indeed thankful for this peace and for this period of time when things are largely in place. yea. though i think i need to remind myself to have greater consciousness and awareness of His purpose for me so that i dont get lost/lose sight after this season of sailing through things.
ogay. SLEEP. BYE.
(:
siqs |22:15
06.10.08
CHOMP
im so hungryyy. im craving for timbre's chicken wings and pizza. why like that. and soya bean ice-cream. yes ESPECIALLY soya bean ice-cream. ogay STOP.
it is in the details, in the most minute of stuff that i find much joy(:
BYE.
siqs |22:46
04.10.08
be magnified
i lift up my eyes to the hills- where does my help come from? my help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.
--psalm 121:1-2.
siqs |15:11
03.10.08
airportttt
hello hello! im at the airport now waiting for gjy to come so that we can send song off tgt.
its quite sad seeing your close friends leave one by one but im happy for her at the same time cos i know that she has sort of always wanted this overseas experience thing. yeaaa plus great school and the course of her choice. song, you'll enjoy yourself there im sure(: just wanna say that i'll always be available if you ever need a listening ear, anything. the wonders of skype/msn/email yea. heehee. stay close to God, study hard and have the time of your life. takcare and i'll missyou. much love(:
it has just struck me not too long ago that. my basictheorytest is in three days' time and i've not touched my btt book. EGAD.
ogay laptop battery dying. more tmr maybe. BYE.
siqs |20:11
26.09.08
thankful indeed(:
this is so bare. it's 1026pm and im still in school typing a very sad piece of assignment called propertylaw. but im thankful for extra time today; there was supp to be cell but many people couldnt make it so postponed. as much as i would have loved to meet my beloved churchbuddies, i just thank God for opening up free pockets of time for me to start on some work.
ogay the end. BYE.
siqs |22:26
24.09.08
dumdeedum
hello sometimes i think i dont really know what i want please. that is very bad. and hence i try to strike a balance so much that i tire myself out. what if im just agonizing about this in my head and there's actually no balance to strike. then again if there's actually something to agonize about, im definitely not making this easy for others as well. come to think of it, im not very nice indeed.
ogay end of incoherent paragraph. what am i talking about.
oh wow look at you now, flowers in the window it's such a happy day and i hope you feel the same. happy song indeed(:
i will consciously remind myself to only say certain stuff when i really mean them.
BYE.
siqs |22:07
18.09.08
let Your name be lifted higher
hello im blogging at the strangest of times. i have double prop law tutorial tmr and i havent done any questions but i dont feel like doing anything.
one thing which joshtay preached at fl last week which stuck throughout this week is that worship is an attitude that we adopt and the mindset that we've to take is that which seeks to glorify God and God alone. everything that we do may be a form of worship which pleases God if we do it for the glory of God (1 Cor 10:31). and hence we choose to be excellent in what we do not because we may be glorified but that His glory will shine through. there's a qualifier to that though; He is glorified when we serve Him (be it in our calling as students or in ministry) not with our own strength but with His strength. and hence we will not despair when we deem ourselves to be unable to do certain things but we take heart because we know that when we lean on Him (and His strength is given to us when we draw near to Him), He will give us the strength to serve in a way that will glorify Him indeed(:
alrightt. and now i will dutifully fulfil my job as a student by returning to the embrace of tansookyee. hur hur. BYE.
siqs |22:45
13.09.08
but the greatest of all is love
hello it's a beautiful saturday evening indeed. and it's dark outside even though there are lights from cars, street lights and homes. night breeze is cool and light as well, all is peaceful and quiet. loveit.
(:
we had youth camp games dry run at ecp today and i really had fun playing louis' retarded but very cool games (which i shall not reveal just yet) with my ever sporting churchbuddies and the beloved comm. quite a while since i had some fun in the sun too cos school has been consuming me slowly but surely so yea it was good and am really glad with the way that our dry run games turned out nicely today! thankful for the eventual good weather as well so really praise God.
and hence im also slightly sunburnt and tired now from all that moving around. heh heh.
before dry run, we also attended jingyu's baptism at the beach. congratulations jingyu, am really happy for you!
there's just something about baptisms which touches me from deep within. my heart just gives way and melts each time when i hear my friend go 'yes, i believe' when the pastor asks 'do you believe and confess that Jesus Christ is the Lord and Saviour of your life?' because i can just imagine God taking so much, so much delight at these three words; it's the sound of one of His most beloved, my friend's heart returning to Him for eternity. and it's like at that point of declaration, His love is just made complete in my friend. everytime when i attend a baptism, im always reminded of how real and evident His love is in our lives yet so many times we've allowed for it to fade into the background. Lord, You're the greatest love that anyone could ever know indeed.
BYE.
siqs |19:29
31.08.08
crunch crunch
hello i dislike weekends cos im freaking unproductive. and im still blogging here. i started reading company at 5pm and one hour later im only through with 4 pages. ggxx. in this period of time, i have walked in and out of my room at least 5 times to get seaweed and japanese tea to snack on, to get the papers etc etc. basically i've been doing everything except settling down to read something proper. AHHH! ):
ogay but that aside, i dont seriously dislike weekends. hahaha there are many other things which make the weekends all the more lovely. like church, churchbuddies and. more sleep. loveit.
BLESSED 20TH BIRTHDAY TO DEAREST JASMINEBOM! (: all i wanted to say is in the msg that i've sent you alr so yea! loveyou! enjoy yourself!
this thing that im doing, i find it a joke sometimes. har har.
the Lord says, Be holy, for I am holy.
BYE(:
siqs |18:05
30.08.08
tree log
hello i just woke up from a very long nap and you know how some people say ' oh she's sleeping like a log' or 'as dead as a log'? that was how i was like just now. i had no recollection of myself falling asleep; i plopped myself onto the bed right after i reached home from church and the next thing i knew it was 630pm. EGAD. HAHAHA.
more later; dinner beckons.
siqs |19:03
24.08.08
weekend post
hahaha i just got off a funny and retarded msn conversation with jasminebom and im heh heh to myself now. esp. xxxx_bubblesglitter@hotmail.com and new vocab KEWL. grins.
anw fri's canoepals dinner/yogi's farewell (im gonna misschew alot yogi! ):) was the best thing that happened this week i thought. i was transformed from irritablegirl (apologies girls for having to put up with my crummy mood esp jasmine. hurhur appreciate it lots) to happybunny after the very gross conversations and sekret chats with them. it was really comfort company to the max. and it was total unleashing of grossness without any need to justify ourselves at all. allmylove girls(:
i just went for a run in the evening and i had a good time. the gym was extra chilly due to the persisting rain but i loved it. scenery was lovely too; it was like looking at the world through foggy and waterstained glasses since rainwater was trickling down the gym window panels. hurhur.
sometimes i wish i could be superwoman and i'd have the ability to do everthing, would have the time and energy to meet everyone etc but i realised that this aint possible lately. i've always thought that if i tried my very best (and by relying on His strength), all things would be possible. and it's not that i no longer believe so but i've discovered that there's also the element of knowing my own limits and how far i can go without burning out. and what i need to forgo to keep my physical body and spiritual walk healthy. then there's also the importance of priorities in life. indeed, i can do all things through Christ who gives me strength and with Him, nothing is impossible. that said, God also gives us the wisdom and discernment in living out our lives in accordance to His will for us and hence, we do not rush into many things blindly as well without assessing if such things are in line with these various priorities that we have.
am still learning how to do this, am still learning.
ogay study. BYE.
siqs |20:41
20.08.08
comfort food(:
heh heh. i just koped royce chocolates from the refrigerator and am drinking iced japanese tea now. so so pleased. happy!
HELLO CURLYHAIR. if you are reading this you know you are not concentrating in the library and blog surfing! hahahaha.
one thing which im thankful for today- friendships in school(:
ogay property law guru BIRKS beckons. BYE.
siqs |20:52
19.08.08
cry in my heart
Cry In My Heart by Starfield
There's a cry in my heart,
For Your glory to fall,
For Your presence to fill up my senses.
There's a yearning again,
A thirst for discipline,
A hunger for things that are deeper.
Could You take me beyond?
Could You carry me through?
If I open my heart?
Could I go there with You?
(For I've been here before
But I know there's still more
Oh, Lord, I need to know You)
For what do I have,
If I don't have You, Jesus?
What in this life,
Could mean any more?
You are my rock,
You are my glory,
You are the lifter
Of my head,
Lifter of this head.
beautiful song that we sang in church last sunday(: the way that starfield puts across their feelings reminds me of casting crowns. can work the other way round too. very nice. very apt (as i've said many times).
anyway. i've been having this strange sinking feeling again lately. it's the exact feeling that i had when school first started last year. not pleasant at all. but it shall be gone soon.
ogay. BYE.
siqs |20:07
07.08.08
5mins post!
harrows.
as suggested by the title, 5 mins to blog this entry because i have to meet aiwernsss in school very soon!
made an effort to wake up earlier today and it has occurrred to me once again that morning is really my favourite part of the day. the warm sunshine coupled with cool morning breeze, the lack of people when i look out of the window and the best part- the stillness of it all. i really love it.
as i told aiwern in her mummy's car yesterday, the bird which wakes up early gets the worm. hurhur.
ogay 1130. BYE.
siqs |11:25
05.08.08
joy to the fishes in the deep blue sea!
HELLO.
i have found a new comfort food to rely on in amk! after my beloved fishball noodles stall closed down. ): introducing the yummy fish soup in amk market! its da bomb babiessss. fresh fish, dried seaweed, some dried beancurd thing and lots of veggies. and if you like fish roe you can ask the aunty to add too! i can have it everyday (but not with the fish roe. think cholesterol)! and theres this fruit juice stall two or three stalls away and its da bomb part2. i had mango juice for dinner just now; its really quite substantial. think liquid form of mango fruit.
ogay end of bom paragraph. i love this blog btw; have grown quite attached to it somehow. i like to read my past entries sometimes and guffaw to myself sekretly. i dunch really like typing personal thoughts here, mostly just random food cravings/musings but even then its quite interesting to see how much i've changed over the years each time i rummage through the archives. the people/things that i love and treasure, my perspectives of them then and now, my walk with God, my focus in different seasons of life, WRITING STYLE (hurhur) etc. yea! while God, some things and people whom i love veh much just doesnt change with time(:
school's starting in less than a week and. the way time just disappears before your eyes is quite freaky sometimes. somehow what we did post crimlaw paper still stay very vividly in my head- us going to jonny's place to chill, harold and kumar (a very weird movie), pump room for denise's and jacq's birthday thing then random emo talk by the river. i remembered thinking. O GLORIOUS THREE MONTHS AHEAD. byebye lawsch for now. and now its hello lawsch again. yeaa but that said, im quite happy with the way my first ever uni summer break turned out(: i've gotten a healthy dose of meetups with beloved buddies (except FOURSOME rarrr), CHURCHCAMP, sufficient rest, pretty fruitful work experience and now im ready for queen's bench already! heehee.
time to sleep. BYE.
siqs |22:33
01.08.08
:D
i just went for a run and am looking drenched right now. drenched in perspiration. but i really like this feeling. hence. im happy, just like that part2(:
cell at gavin's brownhut later on! am looking forward to seeing churchbuddies even though i do hang out with them quite abit. missing don carlson's talk with chesed though. hurhur but. as gavin would say, we've gotta make time intentionally for cell to work out in the long run!
ogay showertime then dinner. GOBBLES/CHOMPS. BYE.
siqs |18:04
26.07.08
(: parttwo
sleep sufficient, full and satisfied with warm pancakes, nuggets and sunnysideup in my tummy, beautiful saturday morning,
im happy(:
just like that.
siqs |10:46
24.07.08
four-minute egg
i will do a speed 4min post cos i promised myself that i'll start on the last part of internship report at 9pm! WHEE.
so,
im feeling really sian and inertia in full swing for the last paragraph of this nehneh report thing. but i must finish it tonight by sheer self-discipline.
and i made new brown glasses! yay but it'll only be ready on saturday night. it's exactly the kinda brown that i like. authentic brown. uhhh colour of soil. luvvit. hahha though i must say. this pair makes me look even nerdier than the present one. a good muggerish start to year2 and to our grand dream of being on the queen's bench. heh heh. okay time's up BYE(:
siqs |20:56
12.07.08
comfortfood(:
i had two huge cravings satisfied yesterday and im feeling incredibly pleased.
went to town w beloved working friend michneo yesterday after work (530pm on fridays!) for half an hour and while roaming around the food basement at tangs, i found tutukueh! it's my ultimate comfort food(: i remember how my grandpa used to bring me to those pasak malams when i was a kid and there'd always be tutukueh for sure. it's so hard to see them around these days though. oh the smell of pandan leaves and steamed flour. loveit. and then after, i went for dinner with my family at toa payoh and it turned out that there was a durian bazaar near our eating place! hurhur it was like the vendors transported the whole durian plantation to toa payoh. there was this neverending flow of durians, baskets after baskets. and hence bittersweet durians! loveit part2.
in fact, i just had a goblet of durian and orange juice before this post. heh heh heh. goblet sounds gross. ogay a seed. TIME TO RUN. boingboing.
BYE.
siqs |16:15
24.06.08
(:
ELLO. this is kinda cliche but it's indeed the smallest things in life that can trigger the greatest joy sometimes.
i was waiting for a bus opposite the station to bring me home earlier and as i was stoning at the bus stop, soyabean icecream suddenly popped into my head and i was like !!! because i havent had it in such a long while. so seeing that the mr. bean stall was just a few steps away from the busstop, i abandoned the bus wait and trod towards the shop to acquire my beloved soyabean icecream. AND as expected after i popped the first spoonful of icecream into my mouth, i was so happy i felt like i could conquer the world. yes even the scorching heat of the majestic sun. and hence i decided to take a slow walk back home.
i practically skipped my way home because the soyabean icecream made me so gleeful in the afternoon heat (and also because no one was on the path that i was on). i thought about how soyabean is good for the bones because it contains calcium and how my bones would be strengthened by it and smiled to myself sekretly. okay as gross as this may sound, im not insane pls. and i also thought about the many things which God has blessed me with; my family and friends, school, the summer break, even the ability to enjoy food like this and i felt so thankful that i wanted to burst out in song. hence the (: i cant even begin to explain why a tiny cup of icecream can evoke such emotions but seeing how the God of this entire universe and beyond can go all micro just to show that He cares for me, it just makes me feel like there's indeed a greater song to sing to Him here on this earth, as the song that we sang in ywam this morning goes.
more on visit to judy's ywam office soon. have got errands to run. BYE.
siqs |16:44
21.06.08
i will ever stand before You
hello.
i just came back from dinner with my beloved canoepals(: fareast chicken rice and then bakerzin for dessert! YUMM. lovedit. and love them too of course. hehe.
am loving the summer break cos this is the only period of time when i can get to see all of my friends so often and on a more regular basis. PLUS all the time in the world to myself. i dont want the summer break to end. yet all good things come to an end. hurhur. in fact, im going to be leading working life part 2 (since post-As days) from july onwards, all the way until almost before school reopens. which means byebye freetime. WOE. but im excited about the job too; really hope that it'd be a fruitful experience! BEAMS.
borrowed books from the library today! im very pleased. DOUBLEBEAMS. doublebeam sounds very much like a powerranger superpower.
i have weird cravings right now- i feel like eating fried squid from oldchangkee. ohdear. and chocolate cake from lana. maybe it's time to sleep. hunger pangs at such hours are often frivolous.
HEH HEH. BYE.
siqs |00:11
07.06.08
thought of the day
HELLO.
a passing thought-
it's funny how something can emerge from nothing sometimes. mystery of the human psyche. and it's unhealthy to allow such thoughts to swim continuously in your head because they only cloud you (and sometimes others) from seeing things the way they truly are. not very good. and consequences can be great. i have one word to say under such a circumstance: evacuate.
and on a separate note, my favourite fishball noodles stall CLOSED DOWN. WOE. where am i going to get my ketchup fishcake kwayteow next timeeee. sniffs.
BYE.
siqs |22:25
03.06.08
BIBLEday
am on a roll, am on a roll babiesss. now that i no longer have blogger's block, time to blog! (:
bought a new bible today. B-I-B-L-E. (inserts singsong voice) YAY LOVEIT. feeling very pleased cos the current red-orange one is peeling very badly and i leave behind red/orange flakes on the table/bed/bag each time i use it. heh heh. so high time to usher in a new bible! though i must say that im still not very used to the new one. all my underlined and highlighted stuff are gone and even the bookmarked pages are different. plus i miss the weathered touch of the old one. hurhur ohwell. i shall aim to weather the new cover soon! (:
so yes today was campus crusade book sale with beloved church buddies- charbao and charis! it has been a while since we met up in a smaller group to catchup so it was real good. churchbuddies are just irreplaceable. thankyou for listening to my bbq story guyssss. love. and its amazing how things seem alot clearer after you voice them out sometimes. coupled with sound advice. EXCELLENT.
and spending a lovely afternoon with them only triggered this thought that i shared with them a couple of weeks ago at thai express- it'd be so sad if some of us would have to leave for another church next time. like after marriage maybe. i've practically grown up with all of them and it saddens me alot to think about our cellgroup breaking up one day and us not being as involved in one another's lives anymore. plus all that leaving behind of familiar faces, surroundings and that sense of belonging. haha gosh. i dont want to grow up suddenly.
okay BYE.
siqs |21:21
02.06.08
as bread that is broken
hello!
no more writer's block! or rather, blogger's block. have been wanting to blog lately but each time i start writing, i'd find that i've nothing to talk about. such is the life of fossilfuel-like days. loveit.
results are out. pretty decent and unexpected. at least for myself. heh heh. am thankful(: thankyou Lord.
yay the beloved mum just brought me a mug of iced milo as im typing this! so sweet. both my mum and the milo.
hongkong with lovely canoepals! comfortcompany101. sarah will know what im referring to especially(; thankyou for your patience roommate, really! <3 mmm. lots of eating and shopping. what people all do when they go to hongkong! except that sarah and i did extended food trail adventure by travelling mostly on FOOT. hurhur. but because of our stubborn-ness in refusing to use the mtr, we also got to see many different and non-touristy sides of hongkong! highlight#2 was when we sat in a court hearing in the hk court of final appeal. HAHAH you say, FREAKS but it was really quite cool. shopping after whirlwind arrival of jasminebom and selene from the us was greatt too! and with the addition of two more travelling buddies, four of us got really gross at some point in the trip (YEEHA) and things were livelier in a different way too. im really glad to have all of them as travelling buddies! LUBZ. and hence. one more trip tgt next year okay! hopefully(:
as bread that is broken, use my life.
BYE.
siqs |21:00
13.05.08
start of fossilfuel season! (:
hello hello hello! im back after a long break(: no more exams! say hello to days filled with sunshine everyday babiessss.
i told partner that i'd blog today and so here i am. life after exams has been great so far; day 5 into slacking and the feeling is. out of this world. im very thankful(: more details/pictures soon because its 1231am and i feel like crashing alr. zzzzz.
just came back from vcf agm at nus kentridge and it was close to 4 hours long! gasps. i havent been to such a long meeting before and im sure very few of my friends had as well hahaha cos we were all adopting fossilfuel persona by the last hour. but well it was quite an experience too, seeing vcf in greater scale for the first time(:
OGAY. i'll do a proper post tmr. BYE.
siqs |00:31
01.05.08
let's watch the flowers grow!
hello its 2pm in the afternoon and i really should be studying seeing how contract is in 4 days' time. but. hurhur.
going by human logic, i really dont think that i'll be able to finish my stuff by the exams and im sekretly stressing out quite abit. or maybe it'll start to show soon. cos i've been trying hard to be as cool as a cucumber in the library and not deflate like a. deflated balloon (boom). but then amidst the frenzy and anxiousness im really thankful that there's still this quiet little peace somewhere in the depths of my heart; the peace which comes from God and from knowing that His will will never bring me to where His grace cannot sustain me. and hence i know that i'll pull through! somehow. as He leads and in His time(: i sow (with Him) and He reaps!
partner if you are reading this, just wanna say ADDOIL too! <3 8thmay! GRINS.
okay BYE.
siqs |13:52
19.04.08
hungry
im fast running dry. Lord, rain down on me.
im v hungry. i feel like eating honey mustard chips and drinking green tea now.
goodbye.
siqs |22:52
10.04.08
thankyou;
hello posting song frenzy!
this song is beautiful. Lord, thankyou for every single thing(: would love to sing this song sometime if i can!
thankyou, for the promises you make,
for the gift of life you give,
always, i will sing your praise.
thankyou, for the chance to live again,
for your grace that never ends,
always, i will sing your praise.
hallelujah, hallelujah, (X2)
my beloved king, to you i sing.
you mean everything to me. (fades)
on another note, day 4 of library persona. im in the library and resisting an urge to scream WHEE loudly. hee hee. its very quiet here. i love the library anw; its so beautiful, everything seems to come to a standstill around here and all you can think of is mug. very conducive(:
unfortunately i havent been doing much. i hope its just the pickingup stage and i'll be more swift in covering more chapters soon!
okayy BYE.
siqs |09:56
06.04.08
mylove!
'For I am the Lord, Your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, do not fear; I will help you.'
Isaiah 41:13.
my verse of the moment(:
i cant believe the way Your love has got a hold on me,
each morning i wake to find You near.
You lift me above my fears
and set my feet on solid ground,
all of my days belong to You.
and i breathe in Your breath of life that fills my heart,
You are my all consuming fire.
i stand here before You,
in wide open wonder,
amazed at the glory of You.
the power of heaven
revealing Your purpose in me,
as im reaching for You.
its really heartwarming and comforting to know that i have a God like this (points to the song above); He who loves me the most, He who lifts me from my fears and sets my feet upon a rock. GRINS.
BYE.
siqs |18:58
29.03.08
sing like nobody's listening
this moots thing is killing me slowly. hahaha. im not feeling particularly nervous or frightened about it actually, just this sense of anticipation that heightens with preparation. do i make sense. moots, i beckon you to come quickly so that you can go quickly too and evacuate from my mind. (i feel like i should say smt like yeeha! at this point in time but i shant.)
so anyway partner! yes casting crowns! sorry forgot to pass you cd last sunday my head was stuck in a cloud due to overt early-ness of sunrise service. heehee pass it to you tmr k! LOVEEE(: and speaking of casting crowns, i love casting crowns. i bet this aint the first time im saying this here. i love the way their songs always speak so aptly and right into my heart. bloopbloopbloop and diffuses into the cardiac muscles.
i just had beloved fishball noodles. craving satisfied again! im starting to suspect that the fishball noodles uncle actually adds in heroin or smt addictive in his cooking cos i have CONSTANT craving for his noodles. i was telling my mum that i think i eat from his stall at least once a week. and you say, aint that bad what! but in a food paradise like singapore, craving for one particular kind of local delight constantly is very strange i feel. HMMM. but anw not that i mind hahaha loveit.
more later. BYE.
siqs |14:24
24.03.08
randomv.1.1
why do birds suddenly appear, everytime you are nearrrrr.
whee this song tickles me quite abit. esp the part about stars falling down from the sky. very marshmellowland and charbaoish. heh heh(: i love oldies! the lyrics and all. its really like fairydust overload!
i have been very tempted to blog since 8pm but i stopped myself because crim beckoned. not that i have anything substantial to say actually but im itching to type the most random of stuff. and i can only do it here!
thankyou Lord for today!
i feel like things have reached a standstill lately; just going through the motions. and im not sure if this is good or bad. i think its like choosing between being apathetic and being emotional.
wildflowers are the prettiest things ever. together with random grass and weeds. i want a bouquet of wildflowers+weeds (and i mean weeds that compete with useful crops for nutrients) for my wedding! hurhur.
what am i talking about.
my legs are aching. time to sleep. bye.
siqs |23:54
20.03.08
bloopbloopbloop
hello im feeling queasy now and workinprogress for last memorial babiessss. cannot hand in late again!
zzzzzz.
joy to the fishes in the deep blue sea,
joy to you and me!
HEH HEH(:
i wanna be like a tree, planted by the waters
trusting in the Lord to make me strong!
another one!
He's the Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end
but most of all He's my best friend!
sundayschool songs are actually quite therapeutic to sing!
seven times a day i will praise youuuu!
okay BYE my friends.
siqs |00:03
08.03.08
some rap
hello!
my beloved sec2girls actually coerced me into writing/performing a rap for them about the garden of eden a few weeks back, in exchange for them memorising bible verses (hurhurhurhur) and i thought that they'd have forgotten but unfortunately kids these days are becoming smarter and smarter. they cornered me last week after worship and asked me for it (oh no!) and hence i got down to writing one just now because theres cell again tmr. here goes:
the dos and the don'ts
in the garden of eden
with the dos and the don'ts!
always eat your celeries
tomatoes cherries and everything
durians mangoes are free for all
just don't touch the apple tree!
fruit that tells you good from bad
fruit that gives you life too long
snake that slithers from tree to tree
are the things that you should flee from!
the dos and the don'ts
in the garden of eden
with the dos and the don'ts!
......
i feel very zzz myself too pls hahahah lets hope this will satisfy them tmr! i love these girls la(:
BYE.
siqs |22:21
06.03.08
cherrytrees!
hello trusty blog.
its one of those days when i feel like letting go of everything that ive been fighting hard for. yes say hello to lazypok101. my brain felt like it was entwined with cotton wool throughout lawr class today, seriously. my thoughts were so cloudy i got quite frustrated cos sort of couldnt bring myself to focus.
the Lord says to run as an athlete running for the prize and He says to press on towards the goal. He says to leave the past behind and to strain forward and He says to live up to what i have already attained. as i learn how to live up to this, i find that there are days when i'd feel so empowered and so sure of the presence of His hand in everything that im doing that i'd do things that i wouldnt have done just because i know with Him i can. then on other days (and perhaps today is one of them), i look back and i suddenly cant believe that ive done them all. worries creep in, i doubt if there'd be more steppingoutofcomfortzone stuff that i'd have to do and i feel scared. i feel like what im doing doesnt belong to myself.
its so strange, this pendulum shift from time to time. yet i wouldnt choose another way to go about doing this because in the unsettledness of it all, there lies the joy of tarrying with the Lord. im not sure if im making sense here but what im saying is that the excitement of following after Him comes from the fact that you always only know enough to take another step. this blend of underlying assurance that He'd hold your hand until the end of the path and fleeting unsettledness stems from the fluctuation of personal focus and faith i guess and as i learn how to deny my own selfish emotions, i see that these fluctuations lessen. im not saying that it doesnt come back ever but each time i learn how to snap out of it faster. and im still learning! i remember how judy used to say that if God showed you the purpose for your whole life, you may be so stunned with fear by the impossibility of it that you'd give up right now. haha. and how true is that! thats why the psalmist said that His Word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path. step by step with just enough illumination for the next move so we just have to muster enough courage to do just that!
mm. and what i have realised is that learning to stand on His Word requires a mighty lot of self- discipline in itself. i dont mean self- effort cos it's by His strength and grace that we accomplish all things but i mean self- discipline in the sense of conscientiously directing your mind to Him; His Word, His character and His love. its so easy to lose that once i dont keep watch and sort of check myself in that sense.
crimlaw beckons. im off. BYE.
siqs |16:13