02.12.08
arise
HELLO EXAMS ARE OVER. words cannot describe how relieved i am to be done with it. yet slightly unsettled because i think that this has got to be the barest set of exams that i've taken in my life so far. excluding those gross cts during rj days. but i refuse to think about it anymore. everything is in His control and everything happens for a purpose; trust and surrender. He gives and He takes away but blessed be His name nonetheless. for now, it's time to play(: tis' the season to be jolly. HOHOHO (merrychristmas).
im physically tired but i cannot bear to sleep somehow. hehehe. i know that time is definitely not of the essence right now but i feel like i want to do so many things, meet up with friends whom i've been missing dearly, gotsalt? camp stuff which i've been neglecting, sleep alot, read a book properly for once etc. and thinking about the stuff that i wanna do hyperactivates my mind. if theres even such a word. i thinkk. i can burst out in song right now. LAAAAAAAAAAA.
okay BYE.
siqs |00:27
17.11.08
!kung bushmen
i feel crazy to be typing away like that in front of my laptop right now. at 6am in the morning when i could be doing better things like sleeping.
but no. i woke up at 430am to finish up clt and when i was awoken by my handphone alarm i felt like i was part of the chthonic tribe where time was a circular concept; it goes on and on forever. im looking forward to the end indeed but it never seems to come.
anyway,
im feeling quite happy and at peace nonetheless. not quite done but almost done. there is yet hope.
(: back to work. BYE.
siqs |05:57
09.11.08
highly dispersed thoughts
PATIENCE.
bona fide purchaser for value without notice.
and ziing has gotten me stuck on damien rice's cannonball. hahaha. i've been humming the acoustic part the whole day already. i dont really understand the lyrics properly just yet but the instrumental bits are good. loveit.
i want good music.
and i truly appreciate sincerity.
both statements above being disjunctive.
and i am content with the way things are these days.
(:
BYE.
siqs |16:47
02.11.08
devotion
its amazing how it always rains when im home on a sunday afternoon these days. the rain takes away all the residual heat of the day and brings much coolness in. and moisture to the fields outside. very lovely. (:
two things to take note of this week!
* where my heart is, there my treasure will be as well.
* be mindful of subtle arrogance.
ogayy. back to floating charges. bloopbloop. haha how apt. AHEM.
and i wanna watch sing to the dawn.
kBYE.
siqs |15:57
28.10.08
eventful101
it was a very eventful day today, one which left me feeling a strange mix of somewhat relief and crumminess. i say somewhat relief because i wouldnt exactly use that word; relief seems to slant things towards the bad side which definitely isnt. maybe i would replace that word with happy. happy with the way things turned out and am thankful indeed. appreciative of some stuff as well.
as for crumminess,
im listening to a song now and it says this:
same power that conquered the grave lives in me. Your love that rescued the earth lives in me.
with knowledge and experience of such awesome love, how can i stay crummy for long and keep from praising Him.
enough said(:
BYE.
siqs |19:55
26.10.08
gallops
hello.
im thinking. i need to be more brave. and not be a chickennehneh. opportunities are to be created sometimes. though this runs together with seeking Him at the same time. and this is off but when i typed the previous sentence, i somehow thought of covenants running together with proprietary interests in land.
things to be thankful for this week! smashing publicity for got salt? today! loveit. cbp you are the bomb. i mean. the publicity guru! (: powerpack pub amidst exams somemore. it was an AMAZING job done! really glad to see things falling into place nicely and healthy number of signups. yea and then! for mocktrial yesterday as well. for it being this week and not anytime later, for daffy being such a good witness, for lovely opposing counsel/witness and judge. most of all, thank you Lord for Your wisdom, for giving me the words to say. in all these, to You be the glory.
and now that mocktrial's over. it's time to settle down and mug for exams. cant escape anymore. WOE. though i dont really feel like doing so currently. ogay ogay self-discipline.
hence, as a start to having more self-discipline, i will log out of diaryland now.
BYE.
siqs |21:37
19.10.08
gurglegurgle.
it's raining outside. i just took a 2-hour nap and am feeling slightly groggy. and earlier on i changed into my running attire only to be met with the dismal sound of RAIN. it was as though this particular dark and brooding cloud was waiting from afar, waiting for me to make up my mind about running. then the moment when i decided to run that gross cloud came rushing in and squeezed all the water out of it. CRUMMINESS TO THE MAX.
that aside im happy to be home on a sunday late afternoon, seeing a blurry mess of people and cars from my window and feeling very safe and warm indeed(:
i still really wanna eat timbre pizza. why dont they have. TAKEAWAYS.
hahahaha.
BYE.
siqs |17:25
14.10.08
midweek entry
aye.
i noticed this general lull in my life lately. YES LULL because i think i wont be able to say this in a couple of weeks' time when exams draw to a near. it's not that we've been having less stuff to read but i've been adopting this very lackadaisical attitude towards work since the end of midsem break which i dont think is too good.
yet im feeling strangely happy and at peace with this. and with the mundanity that comes with this lull. going through essentially the same routine everyday doesn't bother me very much; in fact im content with things being this way. yes though comfort zone breeds zero growth so to speak. haha.
its kinda unsettling to think of my life in this manner but im indeed thankful for this peace and for this period of time when things are largely in place. yea. though i think i need to remind myself to have greater consciousness and awareness of His purpose for me so that i dont get lost/lose sight after this season of sailing through things.
ogay. SLEEP. BYE.
(:
siqs |22:15
06.10.08
CHOMP
im so hungryyy. im craving for timbre's chicken wings and pizza. why like that. and soya bean ice-cream. yes ESPECIALLY soya bean ice-cream. ogay STOP.
it is in the details, in the most minute of stuff that i find much joy(:
BYE.
siqs |22:46
04.10.08
be magnified
i lift up my eyes to the hills- where does my help come from? my help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.
--psalm 121:1-2.
siqs |15:11
03.10.08
airportttt
hello hello! im at the airport now waiting for gjy to come so that we can send song off tgt.
its quite sad seeing your close friends leave one by one but im happy for her at the same time cos i know that she has sort of always wanted this overseas experience thing. yeaaa plus great school and the course of her choice. song, you'll enjoy yourself there im sure(: just wanna say that i'll always be available if you ever need a listening ear, anything. the wonders of skype/msn/email yea. heehee. stay close to God, study hard and have the time of your life. takcare and i'll missyou. much love(:
it has just struck me not too long ago that. my basictheorytest is in three days' time and i've not touched my btt book. EGAD.
ogay laptop battery dying. more tmr maybe. BYE.
siqs |20:11
26.09.08
thankful indeed(:
this is so bare. it's 1026pm and im still in school typing a very sad piece of assignment called propertylaw. but im thankful for extra time today; there was supp to be cell but many people couldnt make it so postponed. as much as i would have loved to meet my beloved churchbuddies, i just thank God for opening up free pockets of time for me to start on some work.
ogay the end. BYE.
siqs |22:26
24.09.08
dumdeedum
hello sometimes i think i dont really know what i want please. that is very bad. and hence i try to strike a balance so much that i tire myself out. what if im just agonizing about this in my head and there's actually no balance to strike. then again if there's actually something to agonize about, im definitely not making this easy for others as well. come to think of it, im not very nice indeed.
ogay end of incoherent paragraph. what am i talking about.
oh wow look at you now, flowers in the window it's such a happy day and i hope you feel the same. happy song indeed(:
i will consciously remind myself to only say certain stuff when i really mean them.
BYE.
siqs |22:07
18.09.08
let Your name be lifted higher
hello im blogging at the strangest of times. i have double prop law tutorial tmr and i havent done any questions but i dont feel like doing anything.
one thing which joshtay preached at fl last week which stuck throughout this week is that worship is an attitude that we adopt and the mindset that we've to take is that which seeks to glorify God and God alone. everything that we do may be a form of worship which pleases God if we do it for the glory of God (1 Cor 10:31). and hence we choose to be excellent in what we do not because we may be glorified but that His glory will shine through. there's a qualifier to that though; He is glorified when we serve Him (be it in our calling as students or in ministry) not with our own strength but with His strength. and hence we will not despair when we deem ourselves to be unable to do certain things but we take heart because we know that when we lean on Him (and His strength is given to us when we draw near to Him), He will give us the strength to serve in a way that will glorify Him indeed(:
alrightt. and now i will dutifully fulfil my job as a student by returning to the embrace of tansookyee. hur hur. BYE.
siqs |22:45
13.09.08
but the greatest of all is love
hello it's a beautiful saturday evening indeed. and it's dark outside even though there are lights from cars, street lights and homes. night breeze is cool and light as well, all is peaceful and quiet. loveit.
(:
we had youth camp games dry run at ecp today and i really had fun playing louis' retarded but very cool games (which i shall not reveal just yet) with my ever sporting churchbuddies and the beloved comm. quite a while since i had some fun in the sun too cos school has been consuming me slowly but surely so yea it was good and am really glad with the way that our dry run games turned out nicely today! thankful for the eventual good weather as well so really praise God.
and hence im also slightly sunburnt and tired now from all that moving around. heh heh.
before dry run, we also attended jingyu's baptism at the beach. congratulations jingyu, am really happy for you!
there's just something about baptisms which touches me from deep within. my heart just gives way and melts each time when i hear my friend go 'yes, i believe' when the pastor asks 'do you believe and confess that Jesus Christ is the Lord and Saviour of your life?' because i can just imagine God taking so much, so much delight at these three words; it's the sound of one of His most beloved, my friend's heart returning to Him for eternity. and it's like at that point of declaration, His love is just made complete in my friend. everytime when i attend a baptism, im always reminded of how real and evident His love is in our lives yet so many times we've allowed for it to fade into the background. Lord, You're the greatest love that anyone could ever know indeed.
BYE.
siqs |19:29
31.08.08
crunch crunch
hello i dislike weekends cos im freaking unproductive. and im still blogging here. i started reading company at 5pm and one hour later im only through with 4 pages. ggxx. in this period of time, i have walked in and out of my room at least 5 times to get seaweed and japanese tea to snack on, to get the papers etc etc. basically i've been doing everything except settling down to read something proper. AHHH! ):
ogay but that aside, i dont seriously dislike weekends. hahaha there are many other things which make the weekends all the more lovely. like church, churchbuddies and. more sleep. loveit.
BLESSED 20TH BIRTHDAY TO DEAREST JASMINEBOM! (: all i wanted to say is in the msg that i've sent you alr so yea! loveyou! enjoy yourself!
this thing that im doing, i find it a joke sometimes. har har.
the Lord says, Be holy, for I am holy.
BYE(:
siqs |18:05
30.08.08
tree log
hello i just woke up from a very long nap and you know how some people say ' oh she's sleeping like a log' or 'as dead as a log'? that was how i was like just now. i had no recollection of myself falling asleep; i plopped myself onto the bed right after i reached home from church and the next thing i knew it was 630pm. EGAD. HAHAHA.
more later; dinner beckons.
siqs |19:03
24.08.08
weekend post
hahaha i just got off a funny and retarded msn conversation with jasminebom and im heh heh to myself now. esp. xxxx_bubblesglitter@hotmail.com and new vocab KEWL. grins.
anw fri's canoepals dinner/yogi's farewell (im gonna misschew alot yogi! ):) was the best thing that happened this week i thought. i was transformed from irritablegirl (apologies girls for having to put up with my crummy mood esp jasmine. hurhur appreciate it lots) to happybunny after the very gross conversations and sekret chats with them. it was really comfort company to the max. and it was total unleashing of grossness without any need to justify ourselves at all. allmylove girls(:
i just went for a run in the evening and i had a good time. the gym was extra chilly due to the persisting rain but i loved it. scenery was lovely too; it was like looking at the world through foggy and waterstained glasses since rainwater was trickling down the gym window panels. hurhur.
sometimes i wish i could be superwoman and i'd have the ability to do everthing, would have the time and energy to meet everyone etc but i realised that this aint possible lately. i've always thought that if i tried my very best (and by relying on His strength), all things would be possible. and it's not that i no longer believe so but i've discovered that there's also the element of knowing my own limits and how far i can go without burning out. and what i need to forgo to keep my physical body and spiritual walk healthy. then there's also the importance of priorities in life. indeed, i can do all things through Christ who gives me strength and with Him, nothing is impossible. that said, God also gives us the wisdom and discernment in living out our lives in accordance to His will for us and hence, we do not rush into many things blindly as well without assessing if such things are in line with these various priorities that we have.
am still learning how to do this, am still learning.
ogay study. BYE.
siqs |20:41
20.08.08
comfort food(:
heh heh. i just koped royce chocolates from the refrigerator and am drinking iced japanese tea now. so so pleased. happy!
HELLO CURLYHAIR. if you are reading this you know you are not concentrating in the library and blog surfing! hahahaha.
one thing which im thankful for today- friendships in school(:
ogay property law guru BIRKS beckons. BYE.
siqs |20:52
19.08.08
cry in my heart
Cry In My Heart by Starfield
There's a cry in my heart,
For Your glory to fall,
For Your presence to fill up my senses.
There's a yearning again,
A thirst for discipline,
A hunger for things that are deeper.
Could You take me beyond?
Could You carry me through?
If I open my heart?
Could I go there with You?
(For I've been here before
But I know there's still more
Oh, Lord, I need to know You)
For what do I have,
If I don't have You, Jesus?
What in this life,
Could mean any more?
You are my rock,
You are my glory,
You are the lifter
Of my head,
Lifter of this head.
beautiful song that we sang in church last sunday(: the way that starfield puts across their feelings reminds me of casting crowns. can work the other way round too. very nice. very apt (as i've said many times).
anyway. i've been having this strange sinking feeling again lately. it's the exact feeling that i had when school first started last year. not pleasant at all. but it shall be gone soon.
ogay. BYE.
siqs |20:07
07.08.08
5mins post!
harrows.
as suggested by the title, 5 mins to blog this entry because i have to meet aiwernsss in school very soon!
made an effort to wake up earlier today and it has occurrred to me once again that morning is really my favourite part of the day. the warm sunshine coupled with cool morning breeze, the lack of people when i look out of the window and the best part- the stillness of it all. i really love it.
as i told aiwern in her mummy's car yesterday, the bird which wakes up early gets the worm. hurhur.
ogay 1130. BYE.
siqs |11:25
05.08.08
joy to the fishes in the deep blue sea!
HELLO.
i have found a new comfort food to rely on in amk! after my beloved fishball noodles stall closed down. ): introducing the yummy fish soup in amk market! its da bomb babiessss. fresh fish, dried seaweed, some dried beancurd thing and lots of veggies. and if you like fish roe you can ask the aunty to add too! i can have it everyday (but not with the fish roe. think cholesterol)! and theres this fruit juice stall two or three stalls away and its da bomb part2. i had mango juice for dinner just now; its really quite substantial. think liquid form of mango fruit.
ogay end of bom paragraph. i love this blog btw; have grown quite attached to it somehow. i like to read my past entries sometimes and guffaw to myself sekretly. i dunch really like typing personal thoughts here, mostly just random food cravings/musings but even then its quite interesting to see how much i've changed over the years each time i rummage through the archives. the people/things that i love and treasure, my perspectives of them then and now, my walk with God, my focus in different seasons of life, WRITING STYLE (hurhur) etc. yea! while God, some things and people whom i love veh much just doesnt change with time(:
school's starting in less than a week and. the way time just disappears before your eyes is quite freaky sometimes. somehow what we did post crimlaw paper still stay very vividly in my head- us going to jonny's place to chill, harold and kumar (a very weird movie), pump room for denise's and jacq's birthday thing then random emo talk by the river. i remembered thinking. O GLORIOUS THREE MONTHS AHEAD. byebye lawsch for now. and now its hello lawsch again. yeaa but that said, im quite happy with the way my first ever uni summer break turned out(: i've gotten a healthy dose of meetups with beloved buddies (except FOURSOME rarrr), CHURCHCAMP, sufficient rest, pretty fruitful work experience and now im ready for queen's bench already! heehee.
time to sleep. BYE.
siqs |22:33
01.08.08
:D
i just went for a run and am looking drenched right now. drenched in perspiration. but i really like this feeling. hence. im happy, just like that part2(:
cell at gavin's brownhut later on! am looking forward to seeing churchbuddies even though i do hang out with them quite abit. missing don carlson's talk with chesed though. hurhur but. as gavin would say, we've gotta make time intentionally for cell to work out in the long run!
ogay showertime then dinner. GOBBLES/CHOMPS. BYE.
siqs |18:04
26.07.08
(: parttwo
sleep sufficient, full and satisfied with warm pancakes, nuggets and sunnysideup in my tummy, beautiful saturday morning,
im happy(:
just like that.
siqs |10:46
24.07.08
four-minute egg
i will do a speed 4min post cos i promised myself that i'll start on the last part of internship report at 9pm! WHEE.
so,
im feeling really sian and inertia in full swing for the last paragraph of this nehneh report thing. but i must finish it tonight by sheer self-discipline.
and i made new brown glasses! yay but it'll only be ready on saturday night. it's exactly the kinda brown that i like. authentic brown. uhhh colour of soil. luvvit. hahha though i must say. this pair makes me look even nerdier than the present one. a good muggerish start to year2 and to our grand dream of being on the queen's bench. heh heh. okay time's up BYE(:
siqs |20:56
12.07.08
comfortfood(:
i had two huge cravings satisfied yesterday and im feeling incredibly pleased.
went to town w beloved working friend michneo yesterday after work (530pm on fridays!) for half an hour and while roaming around the food basement at tangs, i found tutukueh! it's my ultimate comfort food(: i remember how my grandpa used to bring me to those pasak malams when i was a kid and there'd always be tutukueh for sure. it's so hard to see them around these days though. oh the smell of pandan leaves and steamed flour. loveit. and then after, i went for dinner with my family at toa payoh and it turned out that there was a durian bazaar near our eating place! hurhur it was like the vendors transported the whole durian plantation to toa payoh. there was this neverending flow of durians, baskets after baskets. and hence bittersweet durians! loveit part2.
in fact, i just had a goblet of durian and orange juice before this post. heh heh heh. goblet sounds gross. ogay a seed. TIME TO RUN. boingboing.
BYE.
siqs |16:15
24.06.08
(:
ELLO. this is kinda cliche but it's indeed the smallest things in life that can trigger the greatest joy sometimes.
i was waiting for a bus opposite the station to bring me home earlier and as i was stoning at the bus stop, soyabean icecream suddenly popped into my head and i was like !!! because i havent had it in such a long while. so seeing that the mr. bean stall was just a few steps away from the busstop, i abandoned the bus wait and trod towards the shop to acquire my beloved soyabean icecream. AND as expected after i popped the first spoonful of icecream into my mouth, i was so happy i felt like i could conquer the world. yes even the scorching heat of the majestic sun. and hence i decided to take a slow walk back home.
i practically skipped my way home because the soyabean icecream made me so gleeful in the afternoon heat (and also because no one was on the path that i was on). i thought about how soyabean is good for the bones because it contains calcium and how my bones would be strengthened by it and smiled to myself sekretly. okay as gross as this may sound, im not insane pls. and i also thought about the many things which God has blessed me with; my family and friends, school, the summer break, even the ability to enjoy food like this and i felt so thankful that i wanted to burst out in song. hence the (: i cant even begin to explain why a tiny cup of icecream can evoke such emotions but seeing how the God of this entire universe and beyond can go all micro just to show that He cares for me, it just makes me feel like there's indeed a greater song to sing to Him here on this earth, as the song that we sang in ywam this morning goes.
more on visit to judy's ywam office soon. have got errands to run. BYE.
siqs |16:44
21.06.08
i will ever stand before You
hello.
i just came back from dinner with my beloved canoepals(: fareast chicken rice and then bakerzin for dessert! YUMM. lovedit. and love them too of course. hehe.
am loving the summer break cos this is the only period of time when i can get to see all of my friends so often and on a more regular basis. PLUS all the time in the world to myself. i dont want the summer break to end. yet all good things come to an end. hurhur. in fact, im going to be leading working life part 2 (since post-As days) from july onwards, all the way until almost before school reopens. which means byebye freetime. WOE. but im excited about the job too; really hope that it'd be a fruitful experience! BEAMS.
borrowed books from the library today! im very pleased. DOUBLEBEAMS. doublebeam sounds very much like a powerranger superpower.
i have weird cravings right now- i feel like eating fried squid from oldchangkee. ohdear. and chocolate cake from lana. maybe it's time to sleep. hunger pangs at such hours are often frivolous.
HEH HEH. BYE.
siqs |00:11
07.06.08
thought of the day
HELLO.
a passing thought-
it's funny how something can emerge from nothing sometimes. mystery of the human psyche. and it's unhealthy to allow such thoughts to swim continuously in your head because they only cloud you (and sometimes others) from seeing things the way they truly are. not very good. and consequences can be great. i have one word to say under such a circumstance: evacuate.
and on a separate note, my favourite fishball noodles stall CLOSED DOWN. WOE. where am i going to get my ketchup fishcake kwayteow next timeeee. sniffs.
BYE.
siqs |22:25
03.06.08
BIBLEday
am on a roll, am on a roll babiesss. now that i no longer have blogger's block, time to blog! (:
bought a new bible today. B-I-B-L-E. (inserts singsong voice) YAY LOVEIT. feeling very pleased cos the current red-orange one is peeling very badly and i leave behind red/orange flakes on the table/bed/bag each time i use it. heh heh. so high time to usher in a new bible! though i must say that im still not very used to the new one. all my underlined and highlighted stuff are gone and even the bookmarked pages are different. plus i miss the weathered touch of the old one. hurhur ohwell. i shall aim to weather the new cover soon! (:
so yes today was campus crusade book sale with beloved church buddies- charbao and charis! it has been a while since we met up in a smaller group to catchup so it was real good. churchbuddies are just irreplaceable. thankyou for listening to my bbq story guyssss. love. and its amazing how things seem alot clearer after you voice them out sometimes. coupled with sound advice. EXCELLENT.
and spending a lovely afternoon with them only triggered this thought that i shared with them a couple of weeks ago at thai express- it'd be so sad if some of us would have to leave for another church next time. like after marriage maybe. i've practically grown up with all of them and it saddens me alot to think about our cellgroup breaking up one day and us not being as involved in one another's lives anymore. plus all that leaving behind of familiar faces, surroundings and that sense of belonging. haha gosh. i dont want to grow up suddenly.
okay BYE.
siqs |21:21
02.06.08
as bread that is broken
hello!
no more writer's block! or rather, blogger's block. have been wanting to blog lately but each time i start writing, i'd find that i've nothing to talk about. such is the life of fossilfuel-like days. loveit.
results are out. pretty decent and unexpected. at least for myself. heh heh. am thankful(: thankyou Lord.
yay the beloved mum just brought me a mug of iced milo as im typing this! so sweet. both my mum and the milo.
hongkong with lovely canoepals! comfortcompany101. sarah will know what im referring to especially(; thankyou for your patience roommate, really! <3 mmm. lots of eating and shopping. what people all do when they go to hongkong! except that sarah and i did extended food trail adventure by travelling mostly on FOOT. hurhur. but because of our stubborn-ness in refusing to use the mtr, we also got to see many different and non-touristy sides of hongkong! highlight#2 was when we sat in a court hearing in the hk court of final appeal. HAHAH you say, FREAKS but it was really quite cool. shopping after whirlwind arrival of jasminebom and selene from the us was greatt too! and with the addition of two more travelling buddies, four of us got really gross at some point in the trip (YEEHA) and things were livelier in a different way too. im really glad to have all of them as travelling buddies! LUBZ. and hence. one more trip tgt next year okay! hopefully(:
as bread that is broken, use my life.
BYE.
siqs |21:00
13.05.08
start of fossilfuel season! (:
hello hello hello! im back after a long break(: no more exams! say hello to days filled with sunshine everyday babiessss.
i told partner that i'd blog today and so here i am. life after exams has been great so far; day 5 into slacking and the feeling is. out of this world. im very thankful(: more details/pictures soon because its 1231am and i feel like crashing alr. zzzzz.
just came back from vcf agm at nus kentridge and it was close to 4 hours long! gasps. i havent been to such a long meeting before and im sure very few of my friends had as well hahaha cos we were all adopting fossilfuel persona by the last hour. but well it was quite an experience too, seeing vcf in greater scale for the first time(:
OGAY. i'll do a proper post tmr. BYE.
siqs |00:31
01.05.08
let's watch the flowers grow!
hello its 2pm in the afternoon and i really should be studying seeing how contract is in 4 days' time. but. hurhur.
going by human logic, i really dont think that i'll be able to finish my stuff by the exams and im sekretly stressing out quite abit. or maybe it'll start to show soon. cos i've been trying hard to be as cool as a cucumber in the library and not deflate like a. deflated balloon (boom). but then amidst the frenzy and anxiousness im really thankful that there's still this quiet little peace somewhere in the depths of my heart; the peace which comes from God and from knowing that His will will never bring me to where His grace cannot sustain me. and hence i know that i'll pull through! somehow. as He leads and in His time(: i sow (with Him) and He reaps!
partner if you are reading this, just wanna say ADDOIL too! <3 8thmay! GRINS.
okay BYE.
siqs |13:52
19.04.08
hungry
im fast running dry. Lord, rain down on me.
im v hungry. i feel like eating honey mustard chips and drinking green tea now.
goodbye.
siqs |22:52
10.04.08
thankyou;
hello posting song frenzy!
this song is beautiful. Lord, thankyou for every single thing(: would love to sing this song sometime if i can!
thankyou, for the promises you make,
for the gift of life you give,
always, i will sing your praise.
thankyou, for the chance to live again,
for your grace that never ends,
always, i will sing your praise.
hallelujah, hallelujah, (X2)
my beloved king, to you i sing.
you mean everything to me. (fades)
on another note, day 4 of library persona. im in the library and resisting an urge to scream WHEE loudly. hee hee. its very quiet here. i love the library anw; its so beautiful, everything seems to come to a standstill around here and all you can think of is mug. very conducive(:
unfortunately i havent been doing much. i hope its just the pickingup stage and i'll be more swift in covering more chapters soon!
okayy BYE.
siqs |09:56
06.04.08
mylove!
'For I am the Lord, Your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, do not fear; I will help you.'
Isaiah 41:13.
my verse of the moment(:
i cant believe the way Your love has got a hold on me,
each morning i wake to find You near.
You lift me above my fears
and set my feet on solid ground,
all of my days belong to You.
and i breathe in Your breath of life that fills my heart,
You are my all consuming fire.
i stand here before You,
in wide open wonder,
amazed at the glory of You.
the power of heaven
revealing Your purpose in me,
as im reaching for You.
its really heartwarming and comforting to know that i have a God like this (points to the song above); He who loves me the most, He who lifts me from my fears and sets my feet upon a rock. GRINS.
BYE.
siqs |18:58
29.03.08
sing like nobody's listening
this moots thing is killing me slowly. hahaha. im not feeling particularly nervous or frightened about it actually, just this sense of anticipation that heightens with preparation. do i make sense. moots, i beckon you to come quickly so that you can go quickly too and evacuate from my mind. (i feel like i should say smt like yeeha! at this point in time but i shant.)
so anyway partner! yes casting crowns! sorry forgot to pass you cd last sunday my head was stuck in a cloud due to overt early-ness of sunrise service. heehee pass it to you tmr k! LOVEEE(: and speaking of casting crowns, i love casting crowns. i bet this aint the first time im saying this here. i love the way their songs always speak so aptly and right into my heart. bloopbloopbloop and diffuses into the cardiac muscles.
i just had beloved fishball noodles. craving satisfied again! im starting to suspect that the fishball noodles uncle actually adds in heroin or smt addictive in his cooking cos i have CONSTANT craving for his noodles. i was telling my mum that i think i eat from his stall at least once a week. and you say, aint that bad what! but in a food paradise like singapore, craving for one particular kind of local delight constantly is very strange i feel. HMMM. but anw not that i mind hahaha loveit.
more later. BYE.
siqs |14:24
24.03.08
randomv.1.1
why do birds suddenly appear, everytime you are nearrrrr.
whee this song tickles me quite abit. esp the part about stars falling down from the sky. very marshmellowland and charbaoish. heh heh(: i love oldies! the lyrics and all. its really like fairydust overload!
i have been very tempted to blog since 8pm but i stopped myself because crim beckoned. not that i have anything substantial to say actually but im itching to type the most random of stuff. and i can only do it here!
thankyou Lord for today!
i feel like things have reached a standstill lately; just going through the motions. and im not sure if this is good or bad. i think its like choosing between being apathetic and being emotional.
wildflowers are the prettiest things ever. together with random grass and weeds. i want a bouquet of wildflowers+weeds (and i mean weeds that compete with useful crops for nutrients) for my wedding! hurhur.
what am i talking about.
my legs are aching. time to sleep. bye.
siqs |23:54
20.03.08
bloopbloopbloop
hello im feeling queasy now and workinprogress for last memorial babiessss. cannot hand in late again!
zzzzzz.
joy to the fishes in the deep blue sea,
joy to you and me!
HEH HEH(:
i wanna be like a tree, planted by the waters
trusting in the Lord to make me strong!
another one!
He's the Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end
but most of all He's my best friend!
sundayschool songs are actually quite therapeutic to sing!
seven times a day i will praise youuuu!
okay BYE my friends.
siqs |00:03
08.03.08
some rap
hello!
my beloved sec2girls actually coerced me into writing/performing a rap for them about the garden of eden a few weeks back, in exchange for them memorising bible verses (hurhurhurhur) and i thought that they'd have forgotten but unfortunately kids these days are becoming smarter and smarter. they cornered me last week after worship and asked me for it (oh no!) and hence i got down to writing one just now because theres cell again tmr. here goes:
the dos and the don'ts
in the garden of eden
with the dos and the don'ts!
always eat your celeries
tomatoes cherries and everything
durians mangoes are free for all
just don't touch the apple tree!
fruit that tells you good from bad
fruit that gives you life too long
snake that slithers from tree to tree
are the things that you should flee from!
the dos and the don'ts
in the garden of eden
with the dos and the don'ts!
......
i feel very zzz myself too pls hahahah lets hope this will satisfy them tmr! i love these girls la(:
BYE.
siqs |22:21
06.03.08
cherrytrees!
hello trusty blog.
its one of those days when i feel like letting go of everything that ive been fighting hard for. yes say hello to lazypok101. my brain felt like it was entwined with cotton wool throughout lawr class today, seriously. my thoughts were so cloudy i got quite frustrated cos sort of couldnt bring myself to focus.
the Lord says to run as an athlete running for the prize and He says to press on towards the goal. He says to leave the past behind and to strain forward and He says to live up to what i have already attained. as i learn how to live up to this, i find that there are days when i'd feel so empowered and so sure of the presence of His hand in everything that im doing that i'd do things that i wouldnt have done just because i know with Him i can. then on other days (and perhaps today is one of them), i look back and i suddenly cant believe that ive done them all. worries creep in, i doubt if there'd be more steppingoutofcomfortzone stuff that i'd have to do and i feel scared. i feel like what im doing doesnt belong to myself.
its so strange, this pendulum shift from time to time. yet i wouldnt choose another way to go about doing this because in the unsettledness of it all, there lies the joy of tarrying with the Lord. im not sure if im making sense here but what im saying is that the excitement of following after Him comes from the fact that you always only know enough to take another step. this blend of underlying assurance that He'd hold your hand until the end of the path and fleeting unsettledness stems from the fluctuation of personal focus and faith i guess and as i learn how to deny my own selfish emotions, i see that these fluctuations lessen. im not saying that it doesnt come back ever but each time i learn how to snap out of it faster. and im still learning! i remember how judy used to say that if God showed you the purpose for your whole life, you may be so stunned with fear by the impossibility of it that you'd give up right now. haha. and how true is that! thats why the psalmist said that His Word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path. step by step with just enough illumination for the next move so we just have to muster enough courage to do just that!
mm. and what i have realised is that learning to stand on His Word requires a mighty lot of self- discipline in itself. i dont mean self- effort cos it's by His strength and grace that we accomplish all things but i mean self- discipline in the sense of conscientiously directing your mind to Him; His Word, His character and His love. its so easy to lose that once i dont keep watch and sort of check myself in that sense.
crimlaw beckons. im off. BYE.
siqs |16:13