28.02.08
oh happy day!
im aching all over! and i havent felt like that in a very long time, since canoedays! thanks to tennis yesterday with tennistubbies(: which i was and still am very noob at. heh heh. but it was quite fun! i wanna play again (if anyone would be willing to play w me)!
my left arm currently feels as stiff as a tree trunk.
after tennis, i met up with bestest jasminebom and i enjoyed myself alot! we spent the rest of the day tgt doing the most loserish (im serious) and funniest stuff apart from studying! these stuff always happen when we are tgt i tell you.
so i met bom at guthrie's coffeebean and we both had rather nice linguine! (YAY.) then a loser moment came for bom. our conversation went like this-
jasmine: eh what drink do you want? i get for you.
me: oh okay thanks! (looks at the board) i want iced tea.
jasmine: oh iced tea. cold or hot one?
me: err. its iced tea right.
zzzzzzzz. shall not unearth more past loser moments (think class B and class C moments bom) here but it was hilarious. i think if i could laugh any louder than i had i would have.
then we went back to school to study and it was by far my most fruitful day in trying to get some work done! school was nice and quiet because of midsem break/non- exam period and it was great, really. walking down the bright and empty corridor on the way to the toilet made me very happy somehow(: nods. went for dinner at around 9pm! after surrendering to our hunger pangs which got more frequent as 9oclock approached. i was fainting at around 8pm. should have heard how loud my tummy was growling but jasmine thinks that hunger pangs can be tamed and the hungrier one gets the more alert he/she will be. HMMM haha. and jasmine was very mean cos she laughed at me everytime it growled. but then i think she has seen me in grosser states so its okayyy.
highlight of the day! we got a buggie ride down the hill by the really nice security guards who were patrolling the campus! im still very pleased when i think about it now. and very proud. heh heh. cos i mean, how many law students get buggie rides down the hill everytime they stay till late in school (or maybe they do all the time and i dont know but its UNLIKELY). and it was so exciting seeing block b receding into the darkness as the buggie moved downhill (cos we were sitting in an opposite direction from the driver)! WHEE. jasmine thinks it was because of her that we got the ride but i refuse that logic. hahahahaha. i promise to try and catch another buggie ride MYSELF next time!
hearttoheart talk at macs! after losermoment #2 when we discovered that adamroad food centre was closed for renovation after we walked such a long way just to get there. and then at macs there was no more twisterfries OHTHEHORROR but that's besides the point. trusty lineoftrust buddy! im so glad that we could catch up like this despite school, stoning so much, talking so much and be so disgusting even though, as you said, we are turning 20 this year! more to come! thankyou for listening! lets see when our loser moments will morph into glam moments (if they ever do)! allmylove.
and now its time for lunch. 1pm already. BYE.
siqs |12:21
25.02.08
this song's for you
hello!
first day of midsem break today(: filled with many frivolous stayhome (antisocial) activities like reading storybook, visiting the trusty treadmill and eating lots of cake/sweet stuff! i likeeee. but frivolous days dont repeat themselves often. or rather, they shouldnt (grins) or i'd be in trouble when sch starts again! i must lead a productive midsem break this time, i promise myself! which means doing readings is included in the grandplan. EXCELLENT.
my current feelgood song at the moment is HEY THERE DELILAH. kindly introduced to me by the beloved bro. its that kinda song that makes you feel like the sky is pouring fairydust today. very sweet, very unrealistic. hahahah. i'd listen to the song, feel my heart melt alil before concluding that this does not happen in real life. heh heh heh. but NEHMIND i still LOVEIT.
BYE.
siqs |21:03
24.02.08
paper airplane
hello babies its the start of the midsem break! or maybe the beginning of clearing backlog for legal theory readings. heh heh.
memorial experience yesterday was. not very pleasant. and i handed in my memo late): rarr. but im still thankful that its over and done with! and i didnt hand it in even later than i had! just one more memo to go and no more written stuff for lawr anymore! this thought makes me cheery somehow(:
bloopbloopbloop.
there are so many movies i wanna catch this break! like juno, kite runner and atonement (which i suspect is not showing anymore)! but not alot of time to watch all three. tough choice pls.
more tmr. im having this queer tummyache now and its 1145pm already. egad. i need to sleep. BYE.
siqs |23:34
03.02.08
rumblytumbly
hello im experiencing this queer rumblytumbly feeling in my tummy now for some reason! its that kinda feeling that you get when you are eagerly anticipating something but i have nothing very happs coming up actually! okay except for chinesenewyear i guess and the nice long break that comes with it(:
memo experience was really a madrush and frenzy to sum things up. thank God that i managed to finish just before the deadline's up though! for the next memorial thing, i promise myself to do drafts! YEAAA. and because memo took alot out of me, i refused to do anything today! and took up my most beloved fossilfuel persona. LOVEIT. but this has to end soon; readings beckon, sadly.
i just typed this whole paragraph on amoeba and then decided to delete it afterall because i felt kinda silly writing about them. heh heh. i feel so random even blogging about deleting my amoeba paragraph. DOIMAKESENSE.
seeing that this entry is degenerating in quality i better stop. more soon. BYE.
thy word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path.
- psalm 119:105(:
siqs |20:34
18.01.08
queerpost101
i'm feeling so pleased i feel kinda floaty already.
and the reason is. unclear. just the combination of what happened today! crim law in the morning; rather interesting i like though my attention span was short. then evacuated from school very speedily with iris and back home! ATE LUNCH (beams) with the parents, SLEEP, SLEEP, randomstuff online and now! YAY(: i think it was the nap that made me pleased cos i feel like i can gallop around once more! unlike this morning when i felt like a sluggish snail.
gavin's house for cell later! our second cell meeting. very happening indeed. the company and our meeting venue. btw i must mention that gavin's house is decorated entirely in brown! not kidding. the wallpaper, the furniture and even the power switches. I LOVE IT great choice FB. brown colour is my ultimate love alwaysss.
this is an extremely frivolous post. suitable for a frivolous mood like this. its friday today! YEEEEEEEEEEEHA. if only there isnt lawr ever again):
wouldnt it be nice if those shrubs along the road bore XIAOLONGBAOS instead of purple flowers. soupy xiaolongbaos. HAHAHAH cos i had rather dry xlb at beauty world the other day. nice but very sad cos i didnt get to exhibit my full xlb eating techniques.
BYE.
siqs |17:20
15.01.08
love
hello!
no school tmr, rather pleased(: time to sleep like a pig again.
but theres some lawr stuff to do. sad fact of life. nevermind i shall grit my teeth and finish it soon!
today was quite a nice day. minus the fact that we had a 3 hour legal theory class. longest lecture i have ever had in my life! hur but i like our tutor; shes really quite nice! and she has an amazingly amazing memory, not kidding. and crim law lasted for 15minutes. ROCKS. haha. iris and i then proceeded to spend the next 2plus hours stoning (or rather attempting to read legal theory) at the summit. lunch was good! once again, craving was satisfied! xiaolongbao and zhajiangmian(: icecream at sunset way and finally back to school for legal theory. schooliomoooolio.
sometimes, i wish that nice days like this would multiply and repeat themselves forever HEH HEH with no lawr/readings to do but reality hits home and then i'd feel alil crushed like NOW.
i really like sarahpox's analogy of a russian doll to herself cos i find myself identifying with her analogy increasingly. on another note, i really dislike this guardedness and over- sensitivity that creep up from time to time. cos i secretly know that its pride. and pride is not good at all.
we love because He first loved us. and up till last week, i havent thought much about this. i always thought that loving people was an easy thing to do cos, you know, just love la. and i also thought that the easiest people to love in this world, other than God, were my family members. then last week, an exchange w my mum sort of triggered this off. she had asked me to help her draft a letter and actually it wasnt a difficult task to complete at all but somehow this gigantic lazybone in me screamed reluctance to help (cos it was last week of hols and i wanted to stone it all away) and so i kept finding excuses to dissuade my mum from writing that letter. haha yes very gross and selfish. but after that i felt quite bad and i thought of this particular verse. it wasnt easy for God to send Lord Jesus to die on the cross for us too but He still did so because He loved us so much. whoever said that loving someone was easy! to genuinely love takes more than just saying 'hey, i love you'; it has to be reflected through actions and deeds too. and in my circumstance, it wasnt even obscurely close to dying for the people you love! it was just writing a note! and if i could tell my mum so many times that i loved her, why was it that i couldnt even obey her in such a minor matter? have i really loved then! and if my family was so dear to me yet i couldnt even love them properly, how am i supposed to love my neighbours! yea so indeed loving people is alot more than just mouthing words and if you'd like, it often requires some sort of sacrifice. thus, we can never genuinely love with our own strength! we need the power of His Spirit to do just that. and how do we tap on this power? by reading His Word and through prayer! MMHMM(: of course even writing all these is easy but to really execute them is hard. but i want to learn how to! so teach me Lord, stepbystep You lead me!
okay its getting late. better go. haha. BYE.(:
siqs |22:48
08.01.08
hurhur
im feeling emokid101 suddenly. hurhur not seriously emo but frivolously emo. more of a dampened kinda mood. do you get what i mean. cos its pouring outside and i can hear the raindrops against my windows. its cold and dark and the parents are out. quite scary! (oh i hear the door, they are back!) HAHAHAH shucks i feel like a kid manz.
but now that everyone's home (including the bro) this emokid101 feeling has disappeared! (: LOVE.
today was exclusive time at home by myself and it has been pretty good so far. fishball noodles with lots and lots of tomato sauce for breakfast (craving satisfied), SLEEP, journalling. in a nutshell, very well- rested and very pleased. but i must say that beetles are the most annoying insects on earth! was journalling in the living room just now and suddenly this beetle started buzzing around. so i started looking at it cautiously while it flew around cos you know, you dont want it near you. and when an insect is in the house, you kinda watch it. hurhur. then just when i started letting my guard down, it flew in MY direction! roars. so i HAD to drop my journal and uhh start running around cos it was chasing me. worst thing was i forgot that i was listening to my ipod so i slammed it when i bolted from my seat. SAD FACT OF LIFE):
okay end of beetle saga. and also end of this frivolous post.
HAHA. bye.
siqs |23:20
04.01.08
bright copper kettles!
hello hello!
yet another new year; first post in 2008!
new year prayer to my beloved Father in heaven and resolutions written and safely kept in journal! pleased(:
2007 had been, by far, the most exciting year in my life with many things to be thankful for. trackers, internship in church, work, UNI(: it had been a year of drawing nearer to God and experiencing His goodness, a year of multiple heartaches (nope nothing to do with relationship issues heh heh) and a year which saw me roaming around in the wilderness at some point in time, questioning and searching. many ups and downs but at the end of it all, i can only, only stand amazed at the work of His hand and His love in my life. and i can only thank God for the way in which this year was shaped cos it was only through all these experiences that i learnt and i grew. so blessed indeed(:
so in 2008, i pray that You'll continue to take me, mould me Lord. none of myself, all of You.
i promise myself to crash trackers next week! HEH HEH since partner and i have to clean up rol backstage also. greatplan.
swift and efficient shopping trip with partner yesterday. to get stuff for sec1orientation this sunday! 40 paper bags, 40 bookmarks + partner's planner all in one and a half hours! speedygonzaleh.
partner, hope your throat is feeling better after eating water rice! GRINS.
this random blogging thing is very fun im typing whatever comes to mind. LOVEIT.
im very thankful for another week of break! strangely, i dont really look forward to going back to school this year and i must say that this is the first time in all my years of schooling that im feeling in this way. somehow i feel discomfort at the thought of starting school again. and maybe even a tiny tinge of fear. roarr why like that. and my beloved law pals. i really do miss them alot cos i havent seen/talked to them in the longest time and i do pretty much want to see them soon but i dont know, somehow this doesn't match the queer feeling that im having currently. HMMM. OKAY NEXT>
lunch with foursome later at vivocity! my lovely best friends(:
okay going off. BYE.
siqs |11:20
27.12.07
i lift my hands,
hello beloved, im back!
sometimes God just sends the most unexpected of people to cheeryou up! its somehow strange and in the weirdest of manner. i thank Him nonetheless(: He does know the workings of my heart best and He knows how much i can take.
You alone i praise, the keeper of my heart.
may my lifesong sing to you. i really like the way casting crowns puts this; may my life be a pleasing form of worship unto You. part of my prayer for 2008!
lukewarmness and compromise. i reject them all.
Your love is indescribable. it is so big, so wide, it covers everyone on this planet and yet, so personal and intimate. this christmas, i thankyou Lord for Your immense love(:
alright lunch beckons!
i want to go gallop around empty big spaces soon and sing jigglypuff song!
BYE.
siqs |14:45
17.12.07
so close, i believe
i told cbp that im going off to blog and now here i am(: and cbp, welcome back! i missed you!
cyc is over! amazing time spent with God i loved it(: bighug to campcomm too! but totally disintegrating from the severe lack of sleep. haha have been trying to repay sleep debt since yesterday; still feeling woozy and floaty though. hur more sleep tonight and SOON.
partner this is 4 days late but blessed 20th birthday my dear dear friend and sisterinchrist(: you are twenty now! wow moving on to a new level of poise and maturity! (though i must say that i'll need some time to get used to the idea heh heh.)
for all the times you...
*were and still are my lovely TOUCHE partner
*listened to all my woes and lent your listening ear without ever judging
*talked so much sense into me/us (referring to our mentoringgroup)
*spurred us on in our spiritual walk and in service through your own walk and sturdy love&faith in God
*fooled around with and laughed so hard with me (think fake beng moves during revlim's sermon at cyc)
*fossilised with me during fast songs
*and manymany more,
i love you! <3 cant say enough. hope you enjoyed your birthday despite dirty camp games!
christmas is coming! (:
and i feel like eating persimmons.
BYE.
siqs |22:16
12.12.07
many ifs
if you'd ask, i would have.
i know that i cant be the passive one all the time cos it just aint fair but i refuse, just refuse to be the active one. hurhur. hello pride and guardedness! not good at all):
on a happier note, ive met up with friends whom ive been wanting to catchup properly with for the longest time! all before camp! miche, jasminebom and sarahpox(: still want to meet up with selene, foursome, overseas canoepals and 3sgirls when im back from camp! loves<3
cyc tmr!
hungry. i really want to eat a california handroll right now.
bye.
siqs |16:30
11.12.07
BLOOOOOP
hello.
i feel like i have been living in a sleepy dreamland ever since exams ended. a vacuum of some sort. i just keep doing the things that im supposed to and have to do but i somehow do not know why im doing them. do i make sense. WHYLIKETHAT.
that aside, cyc! (: starting to get excited about it though all of us can already foresee alot of running around and very little sleep heh heh. (byebye to repaying sleep debt)
more tonight; dinner time then its off to church!
bye.
siqs |18:04
07.12.07
comfort food
hello. time to do some random101 listing of stuff which i absolutely love(:
*exams are over. enough said. BEAMS.
*ham+mayo+nicebread= comfort food of the day!
*i really want to watch a good movie. any good movies.
i always thought that i like being solitary and antisocial. having alone time is brilliant kinda thing. until i went through this exam period spending some days mugging alone in the library. and surprised myself when i didnt feel so good being all alone. i bet i was being emotional but is this a sign of WEAKNESS. not that i was strong to begin with la but. hurhur.
that said, i conclude that the strange feeling felt above does not apply to the holiday setting! cos its just me and my ipod at the moment and im loving it(:
charis, may and jasminebom! one more day to freedom, hang in there! loves.
bro's in malaysia for school's soccer trip now. im starting to miss him! and his unique itunes playlist which he blasts from his laptop. HUR. this is esp so since i didnt get to talk to him much before he went off cos of examsss.
EGAD. almost 1am, time to SLEEP. using the word EGAD makes me feel like reading archie comics again. frivolous and time- wasting lifestyle, here i come. hoho. or maybe not. cyc is coming, excited about what God is going to do(:
BYE.
siqs |00:16
02.12.07
like a piece of log
hello hello!
i love judy! on a random but important note. yes(:
i declare myself a LOG. cos i totally slept my weekend away. like a piece of sleepy log. and im forever stuck at chweekinkeong v. digilandmall. which is. the first case on the first page of the first chapter of contract. hahahahhahaha ggxx.
million and one things to do after contract on thursday! the bulk of stuff to do coming from cyc. hahaha. blame myself for the backlog (hurhur). and then it'd be christmas! loveit. that will be when manymany people are coming back too; classpeople, canoepals, bennett, robin, debsdebs and more! (:
ALRIGHTS. dinner beckons. BYE.
siqs |19:01
01.12.07
JIGGLYPUFF
HEH HEH HEH.
SLS is over! havent felt so pleased in a while. still feels kinda surreal though; was dreading it so badly when i was mugging in amk library two days ago and now im finally done w it. really thankful for that(:
thankyou charbao, jasminebom and lester. appreciate it lots. GRINS.
im currently feeling alil guilty over something which i have donee. rarrrr.
now contract awaits! SO EXCITING. as in seriously. i think everything is exciting when you compare it to sls.
YEEHA. church tmr(:
BYE.
siqs |20:10
20.11.07
crummy101
hello.
today is a crummy day and i feel. terrible. i dont know why. maybe its pms. maybe im just like that.
rarr. i went to sch just now despite not wanting to and as i told miche at the prata place, i feel very angry with myself for travelling all the way to bukit timah and then deciding that i want to come back. ): and i feel silly for being angry over little things. whats wrong with me.
but lunch made me happier. and thankyou miche and jonny, i love you friends. i really do appreciate it(:
okay now im going to sleep and calm down.
bye.
siqs |15:13
13.11.07
beefstew!
hello hello. STUDYYYYYYYYYYY.
its not working. i feel like i havent been myself lately. and uhh queeractions101. HOW! rationality, level- headedness and sensibility, won't you return to me!
(:
hurhurhur anyway since i last posted, binder is over! YAY. at least for now and im highly pleased. however, this marks the beginning of IMP part two. intensive mugging period. i still remember using this acronym for As! why so fast!
yesterday was lovefeast#2 at miss clarity's cafe with flcomm and only 6 of us were there! joanne, mei, nat, sophie, ivee and myself. haha. but it was good(: the food was YUMM and the fellowship was good! thanks partner for organising it!
i've been feeling increasingly compelled to post less frivolous stuff in here i dont know why! but i shan't; maybe after exams when im feeling very frivolous. then i'll need heady posts to balance things out.
okay BYE.
siqs |09:15
03.11.07
bumblebee
hello.
crazy week i had. but its over and i survived, thankyou Lord(: and im thankful that there are still many things/people to make me happy amidst the HUSTLEandBUSTLE.
i really cant wait for binder oral presentation to be over on monday. even though thinking about it freaks me out quite abit. but i'd still rather have it done soon. cos then my life will be back to normal again and it'll run just the way as it was before binder came and disrupted everything! YAYYY. no more thesummit lunches, endless photocopying+ confusing discussions+ fossilising in the library, missing out on cyc meeting/churchstuff and being caught unprepared for tutorial after monday! hurryhurryHURRY(:
anyway tonight (or rather yesterday night since its past twelve already) was a splendid time spent with my beloved teammates at lemongrass to celebrate dearest aiwern's birthday! i really enjoyed myself just hanging out with all of them and catching up. sendsmylove<3. the food was good too! YUMM.
and before dinner, i had an unplanned thesummit date with miche hurhurhur and it was great. and we talked and talked and stoned and laughed. i love it, really(:
SLEEP. bye.
siqs |00:18
27.10.07
hello saturday!
i typed this huge chunk of emokid101 stuff and then i decided to delete all of them! cos there are happier things in life to focus on. yes, there are(:
this week has been a major challenge for me in many aspects and i have been adopting this new manner of dealing with them all! hurhur. and i do hope that i can keep up with it! one week into newplan and i admit that im feeling quite drained already cos many times this is not the way in which i'd prefer to work and people's opinions do bother me abit. but! not by might and power, but by the Spirit of God. this is rather overused but very true.
off to refine my aldersgate sharing for later. bye!
(:
siqs |10:34
19.10.07
voiceoftruth
hello. i think i really should unplug the new powerful router thing in my living room right now. hurhur. cos ever since it came, my laptop is now able to receive very powerful internet rays which keeps my internet connection flowing steadily and strongly for an infinite amount of time! and you say, thats great! but NO. i have been highly distracted from my beloved notes. i'd read my slides for 10minutes and uh, start blogsurfing or sign into facebook. please. help. me.
anywayy. im so thankful for the weekends. and i spent the entire day at home today (minus tutorial in the morning) in solitude. loveeit. tried to repay sleep debt and i think its working cos im very awake now. but i had a scary dream which still mildly disturbs me now. strange.
charis and jasmine! the fish eye is far from gross please! k come eat curry fish head w me next time and i'd gladly share the eye with you guys. hurhur and then you'd change your mind. AHA(:
i listened to voiceoftruth by castingcrowns before sleep yesterday and its amazing how i can still be moved by it all over again. just like during canoe days/nats.
and now im off to think of what i want to say (or rather, what would God have me say) at aldersgate mc with judy next week(:
bye.
siqs |19:43
17.10.07
wheeeeeeeee
im seriously highly pleased cos i just had fish head curry for dinner. SP! thats why i said that your tag was so timely(:
anywayy some curry fish head trivia. i personally feel that the fish eye is the nicest part. yumm. i mean the stuff near the eye la. hurhur okay maybe not so much of a trivia afterall. but still i loveeeeeeeeeee it.
i feel very high now for strange reasons. because i keep having this urge to burst out laughing even though theres nothing to laugh about. YEEEEEEEHAAAAAAAAA. and nope not caffeine or anything. i bet it was. err. the queer chips which i ate just now. now i know how miche felt after drinking her milktea today. hehe.
alright. im off. bye.
siqs |20:57
13.10.07
pomelo please
hello i think im turning nocturnal. cos im wide awake now even though its almost midnight. and this doesnt usually happen. HOWWWW. have to wake up early tmr for ushering somemore.
my birthday came and went. to summarise, i feel very loved(: and blessed by my family and friends. seriously i cant say enough; i really appreciate and treasure all of them from the bottom of my heart (even though i always look so stoned and calm about it). beloved family, churchbuddies+trackers, school pals, canoepals, foursome+nanyangpals, bomclub, sistas, trustypal and librarygang+YAMS who called in the morning all the way from us!! (AND TOTALLY MADE MY DAY. SMILES). to all of you, to the hottieballoon, to skipping pbl/coming all the way from kr, thaifood, kidnappingplan to changivillage, kboxing, ichibanboshi, cards, cakes, eyeliner and littlemissbooks. allmylove.
most of all, thankyou Lord for yet another year with You! YESSSS! for Your love and faithfulness. for always caring and bothering and never letting me go. for moulding me into who i am today and for future moulding that is to come!
(:
its 1152pm and i feel like eating pomelo fruit again.
bye.
siqs |23:34
08.10.07
icecream float
hello im feeling pleased cos school ended very early today! and just like nanyang days, my parents came to pick me up so i evacuated from school like 15 mins after lecture ended. hurhur tell me that i have a life. but nevermind, my parents are the funniest people on earth sometimes and i love spending time with them(: i can see where my bro and i got our weird streaks from. lovely.
okay and no more horrible strange sinking feelings in my heart! cos i've self- sorted things out. with much help from God (music+bible= supreme combination) and my beloved churchbuddies. EXCELLENT. and i intend to keep things this way for now.
im sorry for not replying tags on the tagboard! i send my love to bom, miche, qying, calida, jw and cbp. <3
can i please have icecream float NOW. i really want!
bye.
siqs |14:38
05.10.07
gjlfjgldjslfsa
You lift me up, You lift me up.
therefore i will remember You Lord in the day and at night.
my heart feels strangely heavy. roars.
okay bye.
siqs |16:35
28.09.07
i offer devotion
hello.
today was offday from mugging. hahah sortof. cos i went to sch to hang out w beloved law friends! (: was supposed to join them for tennis BUT i woke up late and thus the game ended by the time i reached sch. HUR. then we went to zionroad hawker centre to eat. i love the dessert stall! beancurd and grassjelly. YUMM. its especially good when one is stewing in the heat. back to sch to study for a while, visited dearest sista on the 4th level, laughed over silly stuff and came home.
i miss mel sista#2! just suddenly. when i was talking to suef about cutiegalz_88. hur. was reminded of the many times in rj when we'd talk about the grossest stuff and then laugh. plus our talks about church, God, studentventure and all. hurhur and singing 'still' tgt(:
yesterday, in contrast to today, was a fairly productive day! jasminebom and i went back to (or rather sneaked into) rj to mug! in one of the empty classrooms and it was by far the most fruitful time spent in the whole of midsem for me. YAYY. we visited our favourite japstall and drank TEHBING my love. saw xl (librarypal<3) AND mrlee! he's still as funny, as nice and as fond of suanning people as ever. everything just felt really nice, warm and familiar. i do miss this kinda feeling very much. this odd sense of familiarity. of knowing your surroundings and people well. i think its lovely to relive memories once in a while.
and i got to spend time w my dear friend too! just catching up and updating each other about our lives. talked about certain stuff and shared similar sentiments on it. GRINS. it was good. being able to talk about anything tgt yet perfectly comfortable w silence at times. FRIENDS(: and we agreed on BANMIAN friendship. love! that pretty much says it all. WINKSatbom.
then we had a gross convo over msn at night. hurhur please refer to bom's blog for details. i think we are so strange sometimes hahaha.
more study sessions soon k bom! and sarah too!
MICHE with chic new haircut, if you are seeing this, MM no more k! and rest more! you looked drained today. loveyou!
OGAY. have been thinking about passion lately. as in passion for music, languages, sports and the like. passion for anything you enjoy doing. and yea i conclude that it takes a whole lot of courage to find your passion in something, to devote yourself wholeheartedly into it and to only focus on pursuing it without regret. mighty amount of courage!
i watched a documentary featuring musically talented child prodigies on cna yesterday and the way in which they pursue their dreams was really inspiring. and this fierce passion for music which they had. then i thought about what i am seriously passionate about and i found myself not being able to name any. i do like singing for one, and playing the piano AND i enjoy studying the chinese language very much. but none of these stay with me anymore. i chose canoeing over chorale, quit piano and am currently doing law instead of chinese studies in uni. haha not that i dont enjoy doing law though. i dont regret my choices at all but the point is, im sort of disappointed w myself for not being persistent enough and for being neutral half the time. roars. i dont want to be okay with anything and everything all the time, i want to live with more awakening in that sense and to have greater awareness of the things which God has blessed me with. and thats why i say that i do not regret taking paths to be where i am today. i'll treasure what i have and always remind myself to give my best shot. BAM.
guess this works in the area of faith as well. of course, not by might, not by power but by His Spirit. cos its easy to just say all these and not couple what had been said with actions. and, now i know why Jesus said that lukewarmness will not do. Lord, teach me.
torts beckons. BYE.
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